我..........

还在犹豫不决..
钱,真的吸引我..
只是面试而已..
并没什么..
对不对?
不应该想了..
做了再决定吧.. =="

你的选择..

离开我..
逃离我身边..
失去联络..
不再有任何关系..
连朋友都不再是..
慢慢变成最"熟悉的陌生人"
今天的我，勇敢的不再掉泪..
你懂吗？
我选择了你的笑容..
所以我放弃去责怪你..
埋怨你..
请你一定要比我幸福..

可以了

可以结束了..
你选择了狠狠的伤害我..
我懂了..
我会变得坚强..
你的没回应就是最好的回应了..
谢谢你..
可以静止了..

最近的心情..

发呆..
朦朦胧胧..
驾车发呆..
吃饭发呆..
冲凉发呆..
看戏发呆..
想你发呆..
没什么..
就只想发呆..

我只是不甘心

我不是万能..
也不是铁做..
但我明白了一个道理..
"成绩"是这社会要求的..
我也只能说..
现在的我，没成绩..
我懂不管我说我的努力有几多？
我有多拼命？
这一些也只是我知道..
要证明的还是："成绩"!!
别人眼里认同的也只有成绩..
加油吧!!!

X(

my mood was so down..
i don know why??
dont ask me..
just kinda miss YOU i think..
nothing much..
just stop here..
i dont wish to tell u anything..
i did my promise to YOU..
not to disturb..
keep silent..
stay here..
not making any sound..
i did it for YOU..

new day..

so wish today morning while i wk up, radio or news tell me it is holiday..
dont need to work..
hahaha.. lazy piggy..
last9 was hang til 1am i think oni fal slept..
i miss YOU..
i promise will get out from ur life..
i will prof it & do it..
its a better way for YOU & me i tin..
shall not requesting anytin anymore..
i been waiting & hoping for so long..
but there is no miracle for me..
so i had to let go d..
love YOU like mad..
miss YOU craziness..
end up all with nothing..
just have to give up right?
im tired.. really tired..
i hate the feeling of no reply on message..
i hate the feeling of YOU ignore me like air..
last9, i went the place we first date..
i cant really remember what had YOU wear..
but i could remember what had YOU ate..
after our meal, which movie we are watching..
that time was so sweet..
we haven started anything..
just like small little kids having simple shy date..
all the memory was just arrive my brain..
than i text YOU d.. as usual no reply..
YOU ignore me i know..
i will take it..
than the last call was almost 12am..
i jus can say: goodbye to YOU..

lonely sunday..

i shall say..
i cant stand to stay at home..
yet, i jus back from Senai, Johor..
but im lonely home now..
i giving a chance to find YOU..
but u refuse me d..
i shall feel happy YOU getting out from there or feel sad bcos YOU refuse me..
tears keep droping when i received ur text massage with next time la...
honestly, i miss YOU badly..
i know i shall hate YOU, angry YOU but why?
i just cant stop of missing YOU right?
it is my feeling..
i jus wish YOU are the person who care bout me..
but YOU always not..
last massage was so long i send to YOU..
put all my blame to YOU..
yet, no reply from YOU..
YOU are avoiding..
stupid bee doing stupid stuff again..
how many time oni i can awake?
giving chance.. waiting hope..
nothing i have at the end..
still waiting with zero..
tired & suffer but stl willing to..
soft hearted caused me that?
ur power caused me that?
i dont know..
i don wish to know anymore..
can i hide myself?
i wish..
i want..
i hope so..

A day @...........

Senai, Johor..
Me & Vv...
start our journey at 1230pm i think from klang & along the way to Senai, Johor..
Gosh.. should be 4hrs drive can arrive Senai..
but........ when u look at the word but den u noe..
we stop at melacca..
the time was about 2pm..
we had our lunch there..
actually not hungry at all..
hahahahaha..
makan saje.. don care.. :P
after lunch, for sure jalan jalan la..
wakakakakaka..
jalan jalan cari makan.. :P
pa la pa pa pa.. im loving it!!
after all, we start our journey again..
the time was almost 5pm..
oppss.. melacca weather was so damn hot..
den, we arrive Skudai, Johor at around 645pm..
i went to look for showroom where i feel can place my product here..
but all have to wait after discussion with my bossess..
a bit wish to station here..
out of the place i don wish to stay anymore..
den, arrive my lovely Li Wen house @ Senai around 745pm..
o my god.. We spend 7 & half hrs to arrive Senai..
my first time..
hahahahaha..
I miss YOU..
a place YOU are far from me right now..
feeling so excited to call you when i arrive skudai but your voice sound so cool..
i hate the feeling of u giving me..
can i say i wish to blame you?
as earlier YOU promise to come with me..
but YOU broke your promise..
i jus can say: Yes!! I care..
please dont promise me anything anymore..
it is hurt!!
can you tell me it is oni my wrongly 6 sense?
YOU refuse to come with me but YOU hang out with ur bf..
i noe YOU too well..
i can feel it!!
shall stop it..
but why i feel it is so harmful?
YOU hurt me again..

a call from you & everything change..

please don't ever promise me anything anymore..
i stay & wait..
but end up?
you called & hurt me deeply again..
im tired..
so tired..
why can you broke the promise easily?
i never request anything from you but you gave me hope..
than, you take away the hope from me..
just feel so hate you!!
I HATE YOU!!

i dont know??

dont know..
dont know..
just dont know what are you actually thinking..
come easily..
go easily..
what am i gonna do?
stay & wait i think..

la~la~la~la~la~la~

it is monday..
but it is a wonderful monday..
because of YOU..
ya.. i have YOU..
since last friday..
im so happy..
really really happy..
i know i shall not step in anymore..
but im really happy..
i appreciate what i have..
thank you..
la~la~la~la~la~la~
cant stand to speard it out.. ^^

^_________________^

so the happy..
because of YOU..
thank YOU..
i had a great day & night.. XD

想清楚

我有点不知方向该往哪里去了..
头脑有点撑不住了..
金钱上真的有很大的问题..
很多人的建议..别撑了..
但，我还是执著着..
到底世界上有什么是不需要钱的?
原本期待的..
变成累了..
原本期望的..
变成淡化了..
看着钱，钱，钱..
我很辛苦..
两个月了..
一直在为了金钱烦恼..
就快撑不下去了..
原本的津贴没了..
原本的佣金没了..
现在不是很忙但却耗时间..
每天都得花三个小时在交通上..
不是我不想，是我累了..
我忍了又忍..
忍了又忍..
就连还没好的伤也不敢多花半毛去医好..
又是要命的钱..
啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"我BEH TAHAN啊!!!!!!!"

worry in the early morning..

cried in the early morning too..
my stupid sis (the most manja want)
diden gone home last night..
all of us din know about..
was realize in the morning while my parent prepare to shop..
the youngers was called me around 530am..
i din realize too..
till my alarm was ring..
it was 615am..
i get shock..
den keep calling my manja sis..
gone thru but nobody pick up..
so worry so worry..
i cant imagine what is going on..
just worry..
cant really stand den i cried d..
bcos too worry..
den i call you..
thanks for accompany me..
really thank you.
if you are not with me..
i really dont know what shall i do?
my first mind set was you..
luckily.. it only her stupid attitude..
sleep die at friend's house & couldn't wake up..
what the......
so kns...
waste my tears..
i really dont understand why she could sleep at friend house where cant even wake up..
o my god.. i jus can say..
got no idea & no comment.. @@

Tuesday

sleepy & boring day..
almost fall slept at mahkota cheras here..
i cant imagine if i still continue like this..
omg.. but i was so happy today..
la~la~la~la~la~la~la~
bcos you called me..
ya ya..
i know i shall not to show off so much..
but, i really happy..
even till now i still can remember what you talk to me..
wakakakakakaka..
ok ok ok..
control control..
just a call..
but today i had received 2 of your call..
la~la~la~la~la~la~la~
just happy la~~
appreciate what i have.. ^^

my mobile number~

it is block!!
i cant make any calls right now..
cant even sms..
cant do anythings.. @_@
just moody..
2months never make payment..
dont know is my false or my dad false?
he just never go & make payment even i had reminded him earlier..
today i dont know why i feel myself keep mang zhang..
jus non-stop mang zhang..
i dont even know what myself had done just now?
i think i scared my grandma..
all these while, she felt im a good girl..
but what i had did today, i think really shock her off.. @_@
i just kinda down right now..
feel lazy to do anything..
feel dizzy..
feel feel feel feel feel..
i just feel like nobody..

为什么？

当我决定转身离开..
潇洒的不再有任何牵挂..
你却希望一切都不要改变..
你希望我不对你冷淡..
当我只想珍惜身边的那个你..
甚至不去计较我在你心目中拥有的地位..
你却突然从我生活里消失..
是什么可以让一个人转变得那么快？
是什么可以让你随便转身离开？
留下傻傻的我还在期盼你的出现..
不要想来就来..说走就走..
我是个有感觉的动物..
多少尊重我好吗？

slowly

slowly slowly slowly..
i feel like lost in my way..
i don't know where shall i go?
what shall i do?
when im exciting to do..
excited to wait for my returns..
a sudden..
everything change..
my life change without you..
my life change to another situation where i like nothing..
where is my self value?
im always asking..
you are so depress to return whatever between you & me..
so depress to wish leave my life..
any where.. i can't stop you right?
sometime, i feel in my life don't really have a good listener..
always im be the listener..
yet, i feel even nowaday i lake to contact with my best friend..
always, i look for him..
i know he have his own life..
sometime just feel im looking for him too much & pai seh oso..
don't know? just a feeling..
haih.. shall i change my living life style myself?
izit i too depending?
Standfer Lim!! be storng ya!!
Cheerss!!!!!!!

@_@

i feel like im gonna crazy now..
tot wanna treat myself better..
so went jj brought fried sotong mixed with my "salty pot zai kow" to eat..
manatau.. >< my stomach is extremely pain now..
kns.. apa mau buat?
so pain so pain..
waste of RM3.45 man..
i should not buy..
save tat money can stl use for 1 day ride tol.. @_@
hmm.. realize nowaday i become so "pengira"..
it is not my personality but i have to..
if im not count den my future have to jiak sai..
every month have to calculate here & there..
izit life shall be like that?
why don't my others friend do that too?
i just cant imagine how am i going thru?
shall i take up my friend advice?
shall i listen to dem?
as a human being..
i know we have to be selfish but............
i just cant at this moment..
huh.. money important?
o relationship important?
as promises why can all change?
this is LIFE la wei..

^_____________^

just smile ok?
^______^
^______^
^______^
i know it is moody while everybody having holiday today..
yet i gonna work..
but i have no choice..
dis is my responsibility..
when cant stand it anymore!!
just do by dis way..
"wo BEH TAHAN a!!!!!!!!!!!"
ok.. keep your emo now & ^______^

超人不會飛

Recently love this song so much.. ^^

My Day, My Heart full of YOU at this moment..

i do not know why?
i jus know my current status of myself is full of you..
i keep thinking of you..
i jus can say: I MISS YOU..
but the status you never know..
i cant tell you..
i cant tell the world..
i keep repeating look at my memory album in my phone..
all are you..
full of you..
your smiling face..
your "yi chak"..
your moody face..
your angry face..
our memory..
the every moment we spend together..
make me kinda miss you..
last night i so wish you told me you called me because you miss me..
but it won't happen i know..
it jus a wish..
ya.. jus a short chat.. a short chat..
because your bf calling & we have to end up the call..
quite moody that time..
kns.. if he is not calling, we may chat more longer.. T_T
will you call me up again?
hmm.. hopefully you will..
this human being..
is my pesonality..
"fan jian"!!

sleepy mood

last9 while chatting with my few little monkey..
feeling so good..
but reach home at almost 330am i tin..
slept at 4am..
so d sleepy now + blur.. @_@
extremely tired..
gonna sleep early tonight..
but i had a good chat with them..
guys.. next friday will be continue k?
please wait for me to come again.. ^^
stay tune.. :D

for HER again..

just now while i listen to HER cried like tunder..
honestly.. i feel pity to HER..
she is the person who always wait for HER miracle..
but HER miracle always disappointed HER a lots..
while she decided to let go..
but miracle was there for HER..
but when she trying hard to hold..
the miracle leave HER alone & go away from HER..
hey, dont worry k?
one day miracle really will arrive for HER..
she is a good girl..
the only thing she lake of fight..
too soft hearted for HER..
this is why she always being hurt..
爱与不爱
一样让人心痛..

My Back

i have no idea how pain it is..
but it is extremely pain..
i do not know when will it recover?
i just know it bongkak again..
damn it!!
i hate it so..
spending so much of money but it still pain..
yet, it still hurt again & again..
i cant imagine what will going on up next..
i just know if i still taking those heavy stuff..
it will making myself worst & worst..
what to do?
it is my responsibility & this is the job i choose..
what i can say?
I CAN DO IT!!
CHEERS!! ^^