"you" call

11.36pm.......

ringing tone that i pun special for "you"..

i was so surprise.. ^^

shall say im happy..

but i din show it out..

pls give me a big clap..

im doing good..

im doing great.. :)

i just answer and pretending nothing..

short talk..

nothing much..

not regarding me..

but "you" did concern on me..

im sneezing..

"you" ask am i sick?

im happy & feel warm.. :)

when "you" said 'au ta bu lu' always like that..

i so wish i can reply, previously i have "you" to take care on me ma..

but i diden.. i just smile & reply "you" i always be..

tell "you" o..

im actually have lots of stuff to tell "you"..

im actually so exciting when "you" are calling..

but i tell myself to hide everything from "you"..

only here is my place to say it out..

~thank you for being my night with sweet dream~ ^^

长假

我，下定决心......

不管去不去的成度假..

我都要放长假...... :D

5～6天算长吗？

对我来讲很长.. :P

刚刚排着工作表..

真想排完两个星期直到我要去新山为止都是假期..

我要出差工作了..

而且还是在华人新年的前3天才回来..

有没有可以不要回来的吗？ *真想不回来*

嗯~~~

我累了.......

泡汤

原本就不该抱任何希望..

总是要我面对泡汤..

任何事都酱..

工事上..

私事上..

什么事都好..

是我的问题？

我太容易期待了..

23/12/2010

倒数8天..

今年将结束了..

心里总觉得怪怪的..

5年前，我曾许下愿望..

23岁前我要踏出吧生，我做到了..

然后在25岁前踏出马来西亚..

这依然还是我遥远的梦..

梦想毕竟只是梦想..

曾经认为它是容易的..

对......只要我不再对那个家负担..

那么我的梦想就不会只是个梦..

如今，我回想起.......

我到底还该不该去坚持我的梦想呢？

毕竟我的家人对我也一样重要..

看着妹妹们长大..

看着她们述说她们的梦想..

我心疼着..

家里有重大的负担..

到目前为止还是我没办法承担的..

太沉重了..

矛盾..

ppl out there

hello ppl..

im just back from grand auntie birthday dinner..

woah.. seem like damn long & far away relationship..

watever.. s long s i can eat, drink & drunk..

but....... im stl here..

im not drunk..

hmm.. all auntie, uncle there tot im a boy..

bcos of my hairstyle..

som more got ppl straight away comment on it..

yes i know..

but!!!!! what is call fashion?

do u all know?

hehe.. nvm, i alright v it..

im fine v it..

i love myself..

& i love my hairstyle.. :D

late night..

can i say........ i miss "you"?

nope.. shh............ say it here is fine..

today when meeting "you" up..

the kind of strong feeling is gone..

left what else??

i do not know?

let it be.. no comment..

cheer for my night..

good9 ppl.. XD

update for my new hair style

woohuu..

shorter hair shorter hair..

mummy got angry & gonna kill me.. XP

opps.. a bit blur....

'Tee Hee' learn from itu babi vivi.. XP

Side view.. hmm... kinda weird??

another side view.. almost botak.. :PP

close up...... botak botak.. :P

hahaha..

what is ur comment on my new hair style?

have to b brave to cut it off neh..

i change my hair style

ori plan was thinking to curly it..

but my hair stylish advice me not to do tat bcos not suite me.. :(

so........ i cut til very short..

& b4 cny wil go & straighten it..

hmm??? so short how to straighten it?

hehe.. somtin diff la..

den wil colouring it as well..

i am a newly ME..

haven take any pic yet..

seem look fat & round on my face after i cut it too short..

so... lets wait ba.. :))

心疼

我对"你"的心疼是无法言语的..

我知道我没资格..

我知道我没理由..

我知道我不应该..

我知道不再可能..

我知道没有希望..

没别的..

我只想淡淡的带过..

"你"的面子书是我唯一还可以了解"你"的地方..

虽然朋友名单并没有我..

虽然我看得到的并不多..

但谢谢面子书留有一个空间

..

"你"的叹气..

"你"的 :( 脸..

我心疼了..

抱歉...........

不该再为了"你"..

明明说过了..

我在控制..

我迷失了..

fei pet.. 对不起..

我懂对不起该对我自己说..

这是为什么当你说让我们一起加油..

不再去看，不再去探索过去的种种..

我没办法答应..

因为我没勇气去控制..

我..........还是脆弱的不敢面对..

My Name..

Standfer..

Lim..

Siew..

Bee..

somebody said sound like boy..

sound like girl..

yet, more weird is the Bee..

like calling their own lover.. @_@

i have no idea..

sorry.. im name by my parents..

Standfer.. sound weird & like a boy name..

yes.. im weird yet im special..

this is ME.. ^^

my personality..

like to FLIRT around..

from my Ms.pretty comment.. @_@

i said i like her.............

whose know she reply me she "tak suka"..

how sad i am...... T_T

i feel im not growing to a way i like recently..

is not what i expecting earlier..

how to change my tune back?

no idea..

i have missing somewhere..

my life..

easy, simple & tired..

no colorful..

how to coloring to be wonderful?

is a way how we live for..

i am trying to live & life better..

treat myself better.. :))

GAMBATEH..........

昨夜

多想灌醉自己..

偏偏我醉不了..

三更半夜去载我家妹妹..

她还留了一支tiger,我也把它灌了..

一样没反应..

我，还是清醒的..

醉了不知该有多好？

my last promise..

i will not step in "your" life anymore..

take care.....

过程

人
总会陷入低潮..
总会高高在上..
人
会在不知不觉中得到一些领悟..
会在不知不觉中迷失了方向..
我以为
现在的你们都是快乐的..
都是幸福的..
原来
并不是的..
最后一次的聚会中
你们开心的笑..
开心的言谈..
今天发现
一切有了不一样的变化..
所谓地球是圆的..
不停的转动..
人
虽然不是圆的
但，却会一直的转变..
感觉
是一瞬间的..
对就是对..
错就是错了..
感情
是可以培养的..
但，要用多久的时间呢？
维持
是两人必须兼顾的..
但，会否真的长久？
分开
是问题的存在..
问题是需要解决还是逃避？
放下
是需要勇气的..
人，到底可以有多大的勇气？
伤害
是无可避免的..
是受伤害的痛苦？
还是伤害人的痛苦？
忘记
是需要时间的..
时间.............................
多久？多长？
选择
是谁该选择谁？
陌生
让人可怕..
尤其是最熟悉的陌生人..

@________@

i been pressing the same number.. 01x-2xx0xx5
for the whole day..
i do not know what am i doing??
i just know i have to walk out??
lots of question mark in my brain, in my mind..
end up.........
i not even make a call out..
i scare.. i scare i step in again..
i know i cant take away "you" in my heart..
but im trying..
i know i will be a better person..

04/12/10

我想念"你"了...

shhhhhhhh....静静就好..
我没事..我还可以.. :)

寂寞

今天店里留下我一人..
闷慌了..
无聊透了..
糟糕..
又情绪失控？
上Youtube乱翻..
找到大约9-10年前我看过的一部电影..
台湾小电影..
~烈爱伤痕~

由莫文蔚，张学友，言承旭主演..
以前看着这部电影会让我流泪..
几遍都一样..
现在，我却有不一样的感觉..
不一样的想法..
小小的感伤..
微微的轻笑..
莫明的感觉..

結束不是我要的結果...

结束不是我要的结果......

回忆

突然看见一个回忆框框..
那有我们满满的回忆..
最后一次的旅行..
原来我害怕去碰触那回忆..
连打开那相簿的勇气都没有..
曾经我一直一直在那相簿徘徊..
曾经那里是我最爱逗留与光顾的地方..
就算眼泪，鼻涕都集合了..
我，还是爱不释手..
今天，我当作没看到的经过了..
害怕？或许吧..
不希望再为"你"掉任何的眼泪...

即使

我在乎着..
我心痛着..
我失望着..
我感动着..
我期待着..
即使........
这一却发生着..
我选择安静了..
我没得到简单的快乐..
我没得到我要的笑容..
我不再追究..
我不再奢望..
我静静的..
不再闹..
顺其自然..
慢慢的淡忘掉...

我.........

多想撑住..
多不想责备'你'...
多不想责怪'你'...
多不想埋怨'你'...
多不想在乎..
明明说过的..
你总是忘了..
不要夸下海口说我们是暧昧关系..
一点都不像..
一点都不是..
'你'就像我生命的过客..
偏偏我却对一个过客如此重视..
几时'你'才可以领悟到呢？
我要的只是简单的快乐..

心酸酸的

刚看完我那笨妹妹的那篇blog..
第一编文章竟然让我如此感伤..
我疼哦..
你不会是一个人..
我会在..
虽然我没能像个男人保护你..
但，我好好的呵护你..
别总是故作坚强..
别把伤心都往自己身上扛..
就算我的肩膀让你哭湿了..
我还有个大背让你靠..
要加油哦.. :)

spoil me off day..

my lovely customer..
called me since last night..
not only 1 but few..
im not the seller k?
i do not have commission..
yet, this is my responsibility i know..
i wan rest..
last9 til 10smt stl received customer called..
early in the morning..
8++.. harlo....
i stl in my dream lo..
yet, off oso haven work lo..
called me for what??
scold me ada la..
keep scold & scold..
fine.. i tk it..
warehouse ppl.. shoot me too..
fine i tk it..
delivery dept shoot me..
i tk it..
logistic shoot me..
i tk it..
technician part have prob..
is my prob too..
i tk it..
alright.. what else u wan me to tk it more??
im damn tire.. not sleeping prob anymore..
is stress..
i wan holiday..
long long holiday pls...... >.<

almost late for work..

>___________________<
i am pig..
almost late for work today.
wake up at 9am..
what the..
im sleepy..
im tired..
recently playing on9 game..
always mid9 1,2am oni fall asleep..
since have nothing to do & cant fall sleep den on9 game help me.. :P
is a kind of fighting game..
u have to tk care of it very often..
fei pet said thats not fit my image??
erm?? play on9 game oso have to look on image?
i drink milk.. she said not man at all.. is not suppose a TB to be.. @_@
i play on9 game.. whr is fighting game.. she said not fit my image..
than, what actually suite me?
wondering.......... =="

丑角......

我发现的一首歌..
我就像里面的角色..
丑角


*只要你开心就好 若只是你生命的配角
娱乐过你也骄傲
就算听你说他的好 心里对你再多爱慕
仍是站在远处 只给你祝福
你有权力寻找 你最适合谁的拥抱
既然爱过 还你自由 我不哭不闹
我只是 寂寞的解药
我也知道 曲终人该散了*

回应

只是让我心碎..
就不能让我拥有简单的快乐？

我是怎么了？

我看我有很大的问题了..
我承受不了压力？
我没办法释怀？
我快疯了？
我是怎么了？
我..........
超讨厌吸烟..
不喜欢烟薰薰的感觉..
昨晚，我疯了..
我抽烟了..
结果半夜肚子痛，头痛到现在..
我有问题了........ @_@

又是睡眠问题？

今天回HQ途中..
总是会用summit,subang那条塞到不行的通道..
真的不想但又懒弯一个大圈..
就乖乖的塞吧..
塞了半个小时吧..
我竟然不知不觉的睡找了..
不是打瞌睡..
而是真正的睡着了.. =="
好像忘了踩break还是怎样的..
撞上我前面那辆satria...
还好只是轻轻的撞上..
没什么大碍..
对方的车割花了点点..
我家小蓝也是..
心是痛的..但，没办法..
谁叫我要睡着.. @_@
对方是个牛高马大的印度人..
他下车是真的吓死我了..
我拼命的对他说: sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry..
讲了几百次我都不懂..
只知道当下傻掉了..
上回车，我竟然还有点睡意..
天啊......我可以爱睡到这种程度？
太累了吗？
不晓得.......
打电话给我家妹妹..
一个两个都没接电话..
有时觉得还真可怜..
埋怨吗？
是的......
寂寞吗？
是的......
还是喜欢 lonely.. im Mr.lonely.. >.<

睡眠不足？？

我该说夜晚是我最有精神的时候？
一想到可以赚钱，再累我都愿意..
三更半夜都无所谓..
难道我现在的工作就不赚钱吗？
不是的.......只是只有我一个人的店里有点闷..
总是打瞌睡..累..
今天还夸张到差点睡下去..
没用..不专业..
全职工作本来就得好好做..
没事总是睡，睡，睡..
反而外快就精神饱满..
就来累垮了啦..
我想放很多天的假..
我要去玩..
我要去旅行..
天啊................
头又痛了.. @_@

Pissed Off

后悔昨晚我没有沉住气..
我开口骂人了..
骂了我们家的AM..
他奶奶的不是男人..
当下真的抓狂!!!
抱歉，我懂在我的职位我不该骂你..
当我好好跟你讲时..
你把所有的责任推到我身上..
你说那是我的错..
我道歉了..
你还是认为你没有错..
错不在你..
大脑还来不及转..
我就口快的骂了你："what is your responsibility?"
哇.....吃到炸药了..
你竟然回我一句："previous company i always ask my staff to do it!"
"我交代她做了..难道交代了都不可以？全部还要我自己做？"
WTH...老兄..人手不够好不好？
你奶奶的要女生帮你搬东西，收拾..
你不会不好意思哦？
我说的不是我啦..
我总是自己做..
要帮忙我会叫人帮..
个个都累了..
个个都想早回家..
不是只有你这位大人AM咯..
好啦..骂完人..
我心里竟然觉得不舒服..
因为你的职位高过我..
我该向上司回报，再让他们找你谈..
我错了..
我会检讨..
我会沉住气..
抱歉MR.AM... 凸

finally.....

i can't stand..
no use..
start blaming & complaining..
what i had send??

~Feel of scolding you, feel of cry on my disappointing. But, i told myself scold no energy, cry no tears for this person ever. Let it be. Just be cooling to "you" will be fine. I kept telling myself. If "you" allowing me to pass to ur mum,"you" said "you" have no time to meet me. Even i feel disappointed but at least "you" show ur respond to me. I won as disappointed as now. Ask urself, how many times "you" broke ur promis to me? Ask urself how many hope "you" gave me & took it away again from me? "you" spoil my off day. "you" spoil my movie day. Because of "you" i willing to change all my plan follow ur time. But everytime "you" let me wait & wait & wait no ans. Ignoring me s "you" like. Shall i scold myself stupid? always & always with the end of wording 'sorry'.. tat is it. this is whr "you" told me i place a special place in ur heart. Tats whr a place im in the last & 'waiting' list. Finish blaming & good9.~

6 page of message..
feel stupid im doing this..
yet, i did it..
feel myself just like a fool.....
SHIT!!

Disappointed..

"you" suppose to come look for me..
"you" always arrange on "your" time..
always want me to follow "your" time..
i always never say no to "you" & always arrange my time to fit "your" time..
yet......... "you" always disappointing me..
always be..
what "you" know about me?
i hate no well planning..
i hate wait no answer..
i hate no responsibility..
what had "you" did to me?
always.. im not the person have a place in "your" heart..
always.. im the person in "your" last list..
always.. "you" ignoring me like nothing..
'sorry' is not the word i wish to hear..
'wait' is not the word i want to hear..
what had "you" gave me?
this is it..
because of "you" i change all my plan..
because of "you" i stay at home doing nothing..
wait for "you"..
how many promise "you" broke?
cry no tears..
scold no energy..
feed-up to hear 'sorry' from "you" anymore..

累......

累垮了..
进入昏昏欲睡的状况..
哈哈哈..
每天每天..
睡的时间大约只有4-5个小时..
连续1个星期了吧..
尽然可以让我觉得那么那么的累..
加上一星期做6天工..
每天都几乎10am-10pm..
更要晕了..
头疼........ @_@
我的同事头疼请假去了..
我头疼就静静的来做工..
店里没人了..
连我都不来那就不用开店吧..
明天我可以休息一天了..
只要原定计划没变，那我就可以休息一天..
休息日对我来说也不会是休息..
那也会是忙碌的一天..
我兼职柴可夫司机的日子..
分分钟起得比平时还早.. >.<
还要为星期五开始的roadshow烦恼..
不够人手..
就算要train过新人也没办法了..
店里的sales....... T_T
无言以对......
是我的问题..
我没有想出解决方案..
我没有努力approach.....
我有努力了..
但，筋疲力尽...
烦恼，懊恼，累.....
我的小小生意..
人说起头难..
难，真的很难..
还没看到钱但却花完了我一个多月的薪水..
做了两个多月..
还没正式看到钱但我累了..
好累好累..
是不够睡眠问题吗？
我也不懂了..
为了钱，为了生活..
累得像什么样？
谁会懂？谁会体谅？
外表只让人认为你好像赚很多..
赚的都在瞬间给了该给的费用..
我不要是家里最大的那个了..
我想过得~~~
平凡点..
简单点..
踏实点..
轻松点..
无忧点..
无虑点..
没包袱点..
开心点..
可以吗？

我很累了..

My life

Sleepy..
Tired..
Boring..
No day..
No night..
No weekday..
No weekend..
am I blaming??
I think yes i am..
Can I say staff no enough?
not really..
just everybody have their own right..
own principle & selfish??
yes........
human need to protect ourself..
yes yes yes yes yes..
but to a boss will they feel calculative if you over protecting??
maybe..
feel sick of this kind of situation.. ><

梦想

逐渐接近？
逐渐遥远？
我也不懂了..
还没真正赚到钱..
钱真的好难赚哦..
赚来了，转手就不见了..
怎样才可以把钱收好呢？><

开心日记..

although im off but im still busy..
im happy to have my job..
im happy & appreciated what i have now..
a small little wish..
not much..
not a lots..
please don bring it away from me..
im trying hard to do it perfectly..
will a person kena saman if doing 3 job in once??
im having small business now..
yet,im doing my job too..
& the other one is secret..
but i will not hurt any body..
i never stop of thinking how to earn $$..
u can say im money face..
yes, i am..
money place important part in my life..
my final conclusion..
in this world, no money no talk..
no matter how much i earn, i still feel no enough..
just no enough.. ><
god.. i din ask for more..
at least don make me feel so suffering when i need the so call money.. T_T
now.. im still in a fighting mode..
money no enough..

2 days.........
i shall be happy.. :)
"you" called before "you" sleep..
thank you..
i will keep it & appreciated..
im that easy..

今天来的AM.......

真想揍他..
26岁说得自己像神一样..
so??了不起??
我没羡慕你啦..
我的工作好好的..
你要名誉地位那是你家的事..
你不要来惹我..
我不是不要出人头地..
只是我还年轻..
在这里，我拥有很多发表的机会..
不需要像你酱拼命炫耀..
奉劝你一句吧..
爬得太高，太快..
跌死也会很快..

和妈咪偶然的提起"你"

昨晚很早回家..
妈咪也还没睡..
无意间讲起了妹妹的事..
突然她杀出一句.........
"你姐以前跟S酱每天黏在一起..如果是真的"男女朋友"就好了..
常常被人家误会..还说S是你的女朋友..还要两个都是女生.."
我无奈的应了，"是男是女又怎么样？"
妈咪给我的反应是..........
你如果是男生，她是女生那就没问题咯..
fei pet 厉害..
尽然应她说家里你本来就有三个儿子了嘛.. ^^
我静静的没多做任何回答..
她还继续的讲.."我呀..给你们的尺度还不够吗？
我算很好了..没真正的强逼你们怎么样..
都长大了.."
对呀..我们都长大了..
那我们将来要往什么路线，是不是我们可以为我们自己铺路？
相信还是不可以吧..
我未来本来就不属于我自己..
就连想爱自己所爱的都不可以..
这又算哪门的长大？

难到男跟女就一定幸福吗？

不安

除了不安还是不安..
心，超不舒服的..

我已经不知道该怎样了..

我努力的..
很有诚意的..
如果还出错了..
我只能说对不起..
请你原谅我..

对..
不..
起..

我最不想的就是你难做人..
我愿意负起该负的责任..

human..

b more careful.. ><

i wan earn lots of money..

now money shall be first place in my life..

no money no talk..

bro study need money..

sis plan to study need money too..

support my dad need money..

he been owing too much..

too much too much where i cant even calculate..

just don understand how he manage to owe so much?

yet, i cant blame him?

nope.. he shall know how to plan..

but he did not plan in advance..

and now.. suffering us..

mummy is the one suffering most..

told me that he have no money..

that's all..

then?? shall it be my responsibility?

i have to plan for my future too..

yet, i shall i have no future for myself.. ><

很冷

刚刚的那通电话..
让我冷到爆..
我没欠"你"..
是"你"没责任感..
还得我三番四次联络"你"..
还得听"你"那让我邹眉头的语气..
请"你"尊重我是个人..
忘记不是个借口..
有本事连自己男朋友性别都忘记好了..
真想破口骂"你"~他妈的~
有本事逃离马来西亚吧..
永远"你"都不会撞见我..

@#$%^&*+
就是"鸟你"~

Mr.Alarm & Ms.Alarm story

feel heart sick to Mr.Alarm..
feel sorry to Ms.Alarm..
Mr.Alarm always did he job in well..
Ms.Alarm always did her job in perfect..
just.. im d stupid owner who doesn't appreciate..
always rang start from 7am..
yet, i will hang around til 8am oni i wk up..
do u noe how tire is Mr.Alarm work for me?
i kept left it ranging non stop..
sneeze every 10min..
how bout Ms.Alarm..
much more pity..
im sorry bout tat..
sneeze every sequent 5min..
oppss..
im so sorry again..
this morning even worst..
I woke up at 830am..
can u imagine how does it work for me?
ranging for dono how many times..
sad case..
i stl cant get use to my time..
night, i awake like nobody..
hanging like mid9 ghost..
day, i sleepy lik pig..
yawning like babi.. ><

why I still here?

Late night..
I just cant fall asleep..
What shall I do?
What can I do?
nothing..
let's count sheep..

good night people..

无常

朋友是我们生活上不可或缺的一部分..
家人更是我们生活上资助的一部分..
情人会是我们生活上点最的一部分..
爱人也是我们生活上精彩的一部分..
工作而是我们生活上必要的全部..
我的生活乏味的可怕..
我是个爱热闹的人..
我是个爱声音的人..
渐渐，我的生活没了热闹..
少了声音..
仅仅的一天..
我静静的一夜..
让我害怕..
怕得我不知所措..
我终于明白为什么以前的我，
累垮了..
半死了..
我依然爱混..
即使要到三更半夜..
我都无所谓..
因为我害怕所谓的夜深人静..
因为我害怕寂寞..
不是寂寞不好..
只是我不爱孤单的滋味..
我的生活多半被工作埋没了..
剩下的就是睡觉与看戏..
多久没真正在街头游荡？
多久没真正在广场乱买？
这好像过了很多世纪..
哈，夸张..
我该说我并不是那么的工作狂..
我也想有点点不一样的生活..
是我太多情感不知该往哪里寄托？
还是我爱想的复杂？
朋友个忙个的..
聚少离多..
很多人常说：你有很多很多朋友..
是的..我有..超多的..
但.........问题我就是不懂出在哪里？
就像昨夜，我想找个人时..
我不懂自己该找谁了？
我放工的时间太迟，大多数人，
有节目的,出去了..
没节目的,睡觉了..
家人..我该说我变成只是家人的柴可夫司机了..
放假，我总是在接送这个，接送那个..
不是我要埋怨..
只是觉得很累人..
原本很粘我的两个妹妹，
也因为我工作的关系..
开始拥有自己的生活..
是该说他们长大了..
酱是对的..
结果我也还是没在司机行业停顿..
帮他们接送..
做他们的柴可夫司机.. ><
情人与爱人的角色更别提..
我正处于空洞期..
该说我渴望吗？
不是的..
我爱得很累了..
好不容易把一个你爱的纳进你心里..
再要从你心里掏出来很累人..
我仅仅的只想要有人陪..
好吧..
说穿了..
我也不过是个"孤独老人".. T_T

我寂寞，寂寞就好了..

廷的生日..

^_______^
没有华丽的礼物..
只有笑不完的声音..
没有漂亮的照片..
请等她们在FB的upload..
这里只有我想对他说的祝福..
廷..生日快乐.. :)
再多的我讲了又讲..
你也听闷了..
希望你开心，快乐，幸福，健康..
这里有我自恋的照片..
让你笑一笑..
哈哈哈.. :P

sorry.. snoopy 的家被我坐扁了..哈哈..

漂亮吗？这条水是我最新的女朋友..有点高..别欺负她哦..

我爱自恋..

我爱搞怪..

回忆

别无他..
这唯一是我还想守护的"回忆"..
有"你"参与的过去..
没有"你"迈向的未来..
我会好好过..

昨夜我又偷偷掉泪了..
好像一段时间没有眼泪陪我入睡了..
总在人群散去..
我会特别想你..
你过得好不好？
问了千百次..
"你"总不回答..
这样好吗？
你不回答为的是什么？
爱你...让我伤痕累累..
痛了又痛..
不爱了..也让我辛苦..
隐藏得很累..
多想逃到一个没有"你"的国度..
痛哭一场..
眼泪鼻涕，哭花了我的脸..
我都无所谓..
我就来..就来..
快歇斯底里的呐喊..
没有"你"的日子我并不好过..
我忍下来了..
我要坚强的面对我该过的日子..
我的笑容要回来了吗？

tired..

tired for searching for staff..
tired for doing arrangement..
suka suka come..
suka suka don come..
non of expectation..
out of expectation..
i can handle myself?
yes i can..
no i cant..
nothing.. i will face the fact..
nothing.. i will do it my own..
nothing.. dis is my responsibility..
always remember..
ppl don owe u.. will not do everything for u..
don tk it as granted..
yes i am..
i always be..
i always do it myself..
jia you ba..
i won die..

溫嵐-刺蝟

“我承认我没那么坚强..
刺猬的坚强全都是假象..
哭吧.................”

溫嵐 - 眼淚知道

"说爱我好不好?就当作是乞讨..
哪怕说出口只需要一秒，你都不要..
我的痛像把刀..血在流看的到..
你却在他怀抱微笑..."

20102010..

What a special date for today..
since everybody talk bout it..
let me touch a little bit on it ba.. :)
today one of my friend birthday..
i had wish her..
again, here to say happy birthday to u Siew Li.. :)
i have no enough sleep again..
I love to hang..
I love to dream..
I love to hope..
I love to wish..
I love to fa dai on my lonely night..
is not a good way to release..
but is a good hiding way for me..
why do i need to hide?
i dono..
night..... is a place i can hide myself..
i don wan to be alone..
but yet, i love to staying by my own..
my own little sweet palace..
let me hide myself with silent..
tonight will be the night..
the night to my "qing ai de" / "ai ren"..
hehehe.. secret..
sure "he" will kill me off..
love u har....... :P

爱你的两个我

“Because I want you..跟自己在拔河..”
“Because I love you..跟自己在拔河..”
进退两难............

难熬.....

人说：漫漫长夜..
寂寞会是你最难熬的时刻..
我说：一整天...
寂寞死了..闷死了..
到底哪个才难熬..
我怕寂寞..
我怕孤单..
我怕夜晚..
就来白天我都害怕了..
床头的照片总该拿下来了吧？
我是酱问自己的..
另一个自己却说没关系..
就酱摆着吧..
记忆要模糊了吗？
好像还没有..
我还要挨多久？
我还撑多久？
我快没笑容了..
从心底真正的笑..

is not good to be a good guy

i knew it..
im not going to be a good guy anymore..
i scare..

memory doesn't mean anything

just like a fly away memory..
it doesn't mean anything..
i just wanted to kept it..
don't make me hate you deeply..
just realize.......
i shouldn't trust on a lier..
yet, I TRUSTED ON A LIER..

重复的练习说：

我不爱你了...
我不爱你了...
我不爱你了...
我不爱你了...
我不爱你了...

cold bleeding heart...

yes it is..
my heart is cold..
my heart is bleeding..

what the hell im doing wrong??

im not a good superior??
im not a good head??
first time i been so disappointed..
am i wrong for scolding u?
walk away is not a solution..
cry is oso not a solution..
im trying to ask..
trying to solve what is happening on u?
u just walk away..
seem like all my false..
shall i say............
u make myself lost confident for being a supervisor..
seem like im not suitable.

无标题的心底话..

抱歉，当你流下眼泪时..
我不能再把肩膀借你依靠..
抱歉，当你无助时..
我不能再替你挡风挡雨..
我变了..
不再可靠..
不再为你紧张..
不是的.........
只是我没那资格了..
我静静的..
用了小小的行动..
别拒绝我为你伸出的"援手"(小叮当伸出的都是圆的手.. ^^)
没要你感动..
只希望你可以过得很好..
这是最大的知足..
别再一个人掉泪了..
别忘了..
你还有一个他可以让你依靠..
人说幸福可以随手可得..
看你要的是哪等幸福？
它可以很简单，也可以很复杂..
重要的要懂得知足..
我相信你的他可以让你幸福..
他也可以是你的依靠..
你不会是一个人..
别让自己撑得伤痕累累..
要加油.......
雨天过后一定会是美好的晴天.. ^^

^_____________^

小小的满足......
连续两天我都见到"你"了..
本来以为今天没能见"你"了..
但，谢谢小云说要去九王爷..
我，无疑似的见了"你"两天..
开心到................................................
^__________________________^
虽然我们还不能很自然的说笑..
但，我足够了..
谢谢... :)

my Vegetarian day.. 吃素的日子..

我的早餐，午餐与晚餐.. :)
厨艺还不错哦..
呵呵........

吃过Bee式炒意大利面吗？
还要是素的..
我尽然三餐都吃这个..
而不觉得腻哦......
好好吃..... ^________^

最近的自己..... :)

我爱最近的自己..
有点点的闷骚.. (对Teng来说，那该不是点点..本来就骚)
有点点的自恋.. (本来就自恋到爆红灯.. :P)

看看我多爱我自己？ :D

this is me.. :)

i love to show "blekkkkk".. :P

i love this cap so much.. ^^

aiyo.. tak boleh tahan my panda eyes.. @@

赢了..
说到自恋..
我无人能敌..
哈哈哈..

九王爷的大日子

我很想很想去九王爷的大日子..
对不起..
我该说的..我不是那么的有神心..
虽然我吃素..
我愿意的.. :)
真正的原因是那里有一个"你"..
感觉我好像很久很久没见到"你"了..
我想见见"你"..
抱歉..白天我不该颓废..
我会加油的....... :)

Bee想说......

我醒来了吗?
她醒来了吗?
他醒来了吗?
我们三个好像总拥有一样的共同点..
什么共同点呢?
～犯贱～
哈哈..........
总是期待..
总是期盼..
总是等待..
一个，明明知道没结局的...
还是默默的等待..
一个，明明那人来去如风..
还是静静的期待..
一个，明明已伸手推开..
还是稍稍的期盼..
或许我错了..
或许我说的并非如此..
但唯一我懂的........
我们总很爱很爱我们的那个"你"..
值得吗?

I am superMAN

why do i say so?
hahaha..
i just arrange all the sofa, massage chair, bean bag & etc.....
why am i so stupid arrange it all myself?
i tot one of our training manager will came in the early morning..
whose know? i oso dono..
he diden come today..
than the other 2 of my colleague..
i tot last9 need their help to stay til 1030pm..
so, i put them in noon shift..
how stupid i am?
all the stuff myself..
yet, i cant blame k?
i din expecting..
coming next week we have another roadshow again..
located at ampang..
but this time, i have my colleague to help..
erm.. my new colleague feel like not trust me at all..
maybe i am just too young to guide them?
customer ask for price, they purposely call boss to ask..
hello.. i am here.. why don't you ask me?
im at least your senior la..
ouch.. i have try my best to act as a "senior"..
but...... as loke told me..
is quite hard for you to control them..
true ba.. i still trying..
i will not surrender up till the end..
i will show to your..
i have the power.. :)
positive!!

今天突然想起的一首歌.. :)

请"你"一定要比我幸福..... :)

昨夜

10.30pm.....
我竟然躺在床上了..
奇迹... :)
可是我却是一点多才要入睡吧.. :P
抬头看见床头"你"对着我笑的照片..
我也笑了..
所有的回忆换来淡淡的思念..
我该说不错吗?
或许吧..
"你"不知道的事就是我藏起对你的一切..
用笑容以对..呵呵..
在这里..
我可以大声大声的说..
我可以卸下我的面具..

我................
很................
想................
念................
"你".............
><

cooling day..

I think i'm flu..
keep sneeze tak habis habis..
cough tak habis habis..
just took white coffee.. :P
i love it..
feel sleepy..
i miss my "little tiger"

i wan hug hug.. :"(

我现在的心情........

唉..........
不喜欢的感觉...

突发奇想

突然很想写～写～写～
选择放弃..
选择了离开..
选择不再理会"你"..
我决定了.. ^^
多么的不舍得，多么的不快乐..
我给自己下了个结论..
沉淀太久只会让自己更痛苦..
不是吗？
我不要了..
我没能现在就忘记"你"..
我没能就酱忘得一干二净..
但我不会再表现出来了..
我不会再默默的守候..
回想起最后一次双手捧着的脸颊..
依稀清楚留在心里的感觉是酸酸的..
我说了..
我会幸福的..
我给"你"最后的承诺..

人是用什么做的？

有人说...
那是上帝恩赐的..
有人说...
那是父母的细胞组织而成的..

那，男人与女人的分别呢？
男人.......
不善于表达自己..
冷血...
不够细心..
不够体贴..
很坚强..
粗鲁..
没耐心..
不够温柔..
有责任感..
大方..
会顾及大局..
会照顾人..

女人........
爱撒娇..
很细心..
很体贴..
很情绪化..
很爱胡闹..
不够坚强..
爱哭..
很照顾周到..

那，
在男人中少数的男人become女人 or G 的呢？
我可以说的是......
比女人还要女人..
相互了解..
相爱而在一起..

那，
在女人中少数的女人become 男人 or L 的呢？
我可以肯定的是.....
拥有女人期望的男人特点..
还要了解女人的需求..
然而彼此托付..
依赖而在一起..

现在的社会还注重门当户对？
社会观念？
家庭背景？

是的......
过了多少个世纪，
人依然存在的还是观念问题..

要的......
依然还是男人 + 女人..

请问爱情的本质去了哪里？
相爱也是一个问题的存在..

i am sleepy

early morning woke up to fetch my love daddy to bangsar village, Osteo Care..
environment is so good..
what can i say??
so soft.. so warm..
feel like home..
hehehe..
this is y mk me feel sleepy.. :P
ok.. later have to go outlet again..
i am busy even i am off..
tk it & enjoy it..
la~la~la~la~la~ ^^

am i look so scary??

yes i am..
when i was in anger mood..
so..........
pls don come kacau me..
i am tiger!! ><

my SHIT day

What that mean of commitment??
ha............ (this is what it mean to me..)
What the mean of friend??
haha.......... (this is what it mean to me too..)
What i have been treat??
hahaha........ (this is how i been treated..)

><
:(
T_T

今早的我

起不来..
差点迟到..
用了15分钟梳洗..
15分钟到达..
为的就是“你”..
昨晚不该重复提起“你”..
“你”让我格外想念起“你”了..
迟迟无法入睡..
几累都能因为想念“你”却忘了疲惫..
我唯有在夜里可以变得颓废..
完蛋了..
我常对自己说..
我不该如此..
没用了..
我明明知道..
但我却如此..
突然很想吃蛋糕..
淡淡的芝士蛋糕..
思念你的味道就像柠檬芝士蛋糕..
酸酸咸咸甜甜的..
还带点细腻的苦涩..
但我没有..
买了vivian爱的营养早餐..
不知叫什么flying chicken ham...
和我爱的咖啡..
没拍照..
淡淡的，冷冷的啃了那面包..
为什么vivian总是可以开心吃那滋味？
我，没味觉吗？
今早的顾客格外的多..
算吧...是好事..
我还是运用了我的专业..
笑容以对... :)
所有的音乐就像一曲平衡点..
没有高低音..
淡淡划过我脑海..
我心里..
感觉的只有冷..
我今天是怎么了？
我的专业呢？
我那掩饰呢？
我必须收拾自己的心情..
白天不是该颓废的时候..
眼角的泪该收工了..

再见..

the night

hard to fallen sleep..
mind are full of "you"..
tears drop without notice..
this is not what i expecting..
i don't wish to be like this..
i want my life..

今年的中秋节

该说没了你我还是快乐的过吗？

是的.......我有快乐的过..

还吃得很饱很饱... :)

去了你最爱的shabu shabu..

那里充满了我们的回忆..

但今年没有你..

和我那几个小瓜还是玩得很开心..很疯..

笑死我了...

今天我该吃素的..

对不起，我破例了..

所以没什么胃口？

我也不懂?

以下让照片告诉你吧..

强强滚.. ^^

如何控制火候..

不熟会拉肚子哦..

不要浪费食物

yum yum.. :)

猪肉..要几盘都可以.. :)

像吃sushi吗？

来点青菜吧

我的汤.. ^^

太饱没事做.. :P

学 vivi 的teehee.. @@

ini smart ar? using my sister bag to cover the tummy.. too fat.. :P

好啦...

饱到要睡了..

累..明天还要工作..

晚安咯......

醒不了的梦..

我又在一次堕落在你设的梦境了..
明明保持好的距离..
又一次让你闯进..
踩进来没两天，你又要我清醒离开..
真不懂我该怎样了？
模糊，心痛，伤心..
这些都是你带来的..
你仅仅让我开心，甜甜了两天..
你又来带走了..
不明白..
你到底想怎样??
我该说我们明明相爱的不是吗？
因为现实的残酷..
我们必须要面对..
我明明说了..
我只想要快乐..
难道你就不能让它维持久一点吗？
还是你本来就是那残酷的主导者？

im lazy pig..

seem when i feel like don love to blog anymore..
oppsss.....
not i don love to blog but im lazy..
lots of stuff i love to write it & share it here..
just...... im lazy.. :P
can i say im emo.....
yes i do..
seem tues.. u seem lik give me hope..
isn't?? wa pun tak tau..
jus miss u like crazy..
ur hug.. ur kiss..
woah.. over har..
do al dis more den friendship..
life still go on..
after the day..
no more..
so jus kept it as part of my memory.. :)
cheerssss.......

我嘀生日续篇..

想要感谢大家为我准备的庆生..
很感动，也很开心..
真的............ ^^
我的午餐庆生是在DOME与两位老板和vivian Ho小姐度过的..
谢谢..
*少了Charmaine.... :"( 没关系..她会再来探望我们的.. =)

我电话的照相功能出问题了..
每张照片拍了都有线条.. =（

我和pretty的蛋糕..
虽然是她付钱的..
但我逼她和我一起吹..
哈哈哈.. :P
很好吃..我喜欢..嘻嘻..

晚上的part..

饱到我............
很久没有一天吃这么多了..
哈哈哈..
真的很感激每一位..
我真的感动了..
其他就等Ee upload 吧..
在FB.... ^^



*遗憾..
我希望"你"可以达成我的生日愿望..
你没做..让我掉泪了..
没回应就是最好的回应吧..
加油吧..
我会好起来的.. ^^

我嘀生日.....

9/9/2010........
在FB有很多很多人给于的祝福..
让我感动..
谢谢..
也谢谢"你"..
短短的happy birthday dear..
也让我心跳不已.. ^^
谢谢啦..
明天再来upload吧..

i will be right back.. :P

tahan~ing

im not sure how a person can tahan pee pee from morning till now..
the time is almost 8pm..
lets calculate.. since 11am i feel lik wan pee..
total 9hrs..
yet, i cant go..
outlet no ppl.. ><
im waiting vivi to come..
sorry.. i noe i shall not trouble her..
jus.......... i cant stand anymore..
har..... from yday~today..
been feel so sad and moody..
down~dOwn~DOwn~
i shall not share it here..
jus............ haih.. i can tk it..
everyone hv their situation..
i can understd..
don forgot.. Standfer Lim with body armor..
everythings.. jus come to me..
I TELL MYSELF..
I CAN TAKE IT..
u know wat??
i feel so cooling here..
i feel lonely.. yes i am..
how long i din smile thru my heart??
feel lik long ago..
i don lik to have this feeling..
i love to smile.. i love to laugh..
but since everything change..
i don have my smile anymore..
last9 & dis morning.......
i was raining..
raining for who?
yes i know yes u know..
but this time its include som others issue..
i think bout my best fren.. haha..
ppl said, best fren is to smile for..
but im droping..
jus simple & easy.. im droping..
don ask me why??
i don know..
long ago.. since d matter happened..
i tk it all & hide it all..
huh.. my page getting less ppl to visit..
previously i so wish all can visit around but now.....
is alrite..
my page is to write my feeling..
not to show off..
jus keep quiet....... hide...........
next week coming soon..
wat do i expecting?
a lots.........
not oni from "you"..
oso from "him"..
oso from "her"..
hahahahaha..
i jus wish miracle happen.. ^^

September......

九月............
可以说是我喜欢的月份..
也可以是我讨厌的月份..
矛盾...
8 & 9号，我竟然可以休假了..
哈哈...庆祝我生日吗？=="
但，我...........并没有很高兴..
我一直期待着些什么？
一直希望着些什么？
刚刚无聊看了一些回忆的照片..
有对"你"的回忆..
有我最爱的家人的回忆..
有我最machi，最爱的朋友们的回忆..
心里竟有点酸酸的..
是我不能接受世界的转变？
还是我不想接受呢？
想回到过去..
回到一切都是美好的时候..
呵呵.....我又孩子气了..
因为我累了..
很累很累..
累得快跨了..
就让我颓废一天好吗？
我不想理什么了..
让我埋藏我自己..
越深越好..

最近的脸有够丑的..
豆豆都超爱我的..
生得满脸都是..... @_@
来做下半脸侠吧.. ><

31/8/2010

National Day..
But I have to work..
i got to enjoy..
but it is too boring..
where is customer? ><
orang mana pigi???
HELP!!!!!!!
CUSTOMER WANTED!! :P
i accidently saw "ur" picture uploaded by ur fren..
erm.. actually not accidently la..
i stl will go "ur" profile view u once a while..
even "you" r not in my friend list..
but i just wan to know how r "you" recently？
i shall say brand new "you"..
who i don't even know..
jia you ba..
not to think about "you".. :)
it is not belong to me anymore..

tiring..

T_T feel like blur in the morning..
feel tired..
feel sleepy..
feel like wana sai sai..
wahahahaha.. :P
si stupid..
i had pork mee again.. @_@
one whole week beturut-turut..
except my vege day..
wakakakakaka..
i'm lovin it..

the matter i care..
the matter i sad..
the matter i tears for..
the matter i hurt..
the matter i got scold..
the matter i wish for change..
the matter i wait for miracle..
the matter i keep..
woah.............
banyaknya..

jia you ba..
daddy will be fine..
pray hard..

shhhhhhh.......

你就静静吧.....
很多人认为你总有人帮..
但，我最需要我好朋友时.......
itu orang tak ada..
烂好人..
这称呼总被用在我身上..
不错，不错..
能说些什么？
两天来，我都保持静音了..
对啊.......
自家事都顾不了..
还要鸡婆..
真活该..
slap kao urself stupid!! ><
做了就不该逃避..
我会承担..

老天爷.....
拜托您.....
请您大发慈悲..
保佑我爸爸好吗？
看着他的情况一天比一天的严重..
我很担心..
眼泪流了又流..
为了那复杂的心情..

今天是Charmaine的last day了..
哎哟............
酸酸的..
五味杂橙的滋味..
不舍得......... T_T

没事的......
明天会更好..
加油..

报告结果..

daddy没有坦白告诉我们报告的结果..
我懂他不想我们担心..
但，反而从别人口中得知..
我们更担心了..
mummy更是伤心..
轻微中风..
我该说这不是我要的结果吗？
我不想要..
你说我孩子气也好..
我就是酱..
我的心飞哪去了？
我想念我家的超人..
他去医院了......
daddy..你要好起来哦........

tired......

ya, day after day.......
im really tired d..
exhausted..
a sudden feel..
when can i rest har?
i don't really know??
must get staff first i think..
o my god..
den i think i have to wait til october only i can get to rest gua..
y? coming september have 3 roadshow beturut-turut..
how am i going to rest?
im really tired..
so so so tired.. ><
sudah mao pengsan..
help.........
yday mr.lipas ask me wana change job o not?
his company hiring ppl..
my first reaction was.......
at the moment nope..
y? i still have some hope with this company i think..
i feel it have a bright future..
hopefully im not wrong la..
must jia you le la..
ntg is impossible..
i need to be done all this.. :)
GAMBATEH!!

她错了吗？

我很想大骂...
你这是干嘛?
隔了那么久..
一个不再联络的人..
仅仅的只留了一段小小的留言..
没什么，也没在那晒命.. (还是你认为那叫晒命?会太偏激了吗？)
小小的只想对朋友们说她会不在..
错了吗？
她在乎的你了解了吗？
酱又让你如此的不顺眼？
其实，你的心态到底是怎样呢？
对，你没给那人任何反应..
你只是在你的空间留言..
没事..你高兴就好..
说了你也不明白..
说白了..
你也认为那人并不在乎..
没那回事对吗？
那你懂不懂你让那人的生活充满了恐惧？
她是位爱拍照的人..
为什么今时今日她都很少把她与她男朋友的生活照放上FB?
那是为了谁？
你懂吗？
没为了想与你吵架还是什么..
只想问你，也想懂..
到底她可以争取她要的幸福吗？
为什么你可以开开心心..
光明正大的上传你的开心，你的幸福..
为什么她只是小小的留言..
你也让我认为好心酸..
她做错了吗？
错在她选择的不是你？
错在你认为她为了钱？
错在她和他是用钱在经营他们的感情？
还是你放不开？
还是你不甘心？
我不明白..
也觉得她很可怜..
从前我没在她的立场为她想过..
一味的认为她背叛了你..
她与他在用钱经营..
渐渐的..
我式着与她沟通..
我发现原来在她与你分开后..
她曾痛苦与无奈的过..
那是我们不懂的..
看到现在的她，我突然觉得该替她高兴..
但，为什么你总要在她可以开心过日子时..
又要让她不开心呢？
你不是该给她祝福吗？
还是对这个人根本没有幸福可言？

22/8/10

just had my fav.......
pa la pa pa pa.. im lovin it!!
McD......
so damn full..
feel like wana update my pass few days mood here but seem ntg much to write..
last9 i was damnly emo..
i dono y?
jut emo like a stupid..
har ha..
forget bout it..
it was pass..
i shall learn keep everything inside my heart..
not everything shall say it out right?
i diden go yum cha last9..
waoh.. its so weird..
i had get use to yum cha & hang around everynite..
but last9 i din.. i dono y?
im just tired..
i dont wish to do anything & say anything..
this morning i saw daddy was wake up early & watching tv program..
i saw he was so hard to walk even talk..
u know..... my heart was extremely painful..
feel like wana cry..
but i control myself..
i shall not to do dis..
daddy.. u will recover soon right?
yes i know u will.. :)

god.. pls bless my superhero..
i love my dad more than myself..
pls.. i just wan he to be healthy..

Time passing fast..

more than half of the month had pass..
thinking back..
what i had did this half year ++??
hmm....... seem nothing..
begining of the year.....
sharing my life with my love one..
until she left.....
i keep waiting & hoping she back..
how stupid..
yet, i shall say.. til now im still a stupid.. =="
what a shame.. ><
i change my job around march..
i though everything will be better & is a new challenge..
now.. i found it maybe not..
y? i getting tired & tired..
non-stop working with 12hrs per day.. (even more than that)
7days a week..
i shall say.. i need more rest..
i may take a long leave once here got hire new staff..
at least let me rest enough 5days..
im good right?
never ask full of my replacement leave.. XP
so bad... i cant make it true now..
im waiting..
another change of my life getting soonest..
i may need more burden & going thru more harder..
but i will take it & face it..
i tell myself........
BE POSITIVE..
EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE..
ya.. im sure everything will be fine..
god will bless us..

心疼ing.......

我常怨为什么我要承受别人不必承受的..
每天必须带着便当..
午餐+晚餐.....
看着别人总是吃着外面的食物..
羡慕.........
但，渐渐的我明白了..
我，身在福中不知福...
有我mummy的便当是幸福的..
我该开心与知足.. ^^
很多人都没有..
今早看见daddy走路的姿势..
一拐一拐的..
心疼........
再加上最近我妹们常会告诉我..
daddy的情况一天一天的严重..
慢慢的穿衣要人帮..
开始没什么能驾车..
拿不起重物品..
偶尔吃饭也要他们喂..
更加的心疼.......
mummy的担心，mummy的辛苦也一天一天的增加..
原以为情况并不是我想象的严重..
但我发现，我少了在家..
情况的严重增加..
现在的我不求别的..
拜托老天爷..
让我daddy健健康康..
挨过去就好........ T_T

七夕情人节..

一大早..
我就想念"你"了..
传了个"你"不会回的信息给你..
"Happy valentine day..
祝"你"七夕情人节快乐"..
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520..........

笨笨的..
就是不懂干吗要做笨事情..
>< 算了..
反正"你"也不会回应我..
"你"要幸福哦..


愿全天下的情人幸福快乐..
有情人终成眷属.. ^^

miracle

14/8/10, 11.45pm

B: Do I ever crossed "your" mind today?

14/8/10, 11.50pm

S: ???

14/8/10, 11.55pm

B: 我今天有在你脑海经过了吗?

15/8/10, 12.05am

S: ^^ 我可以说有吗?.............不可以................. 那你并没有在我脑海经过! 我必须很理智，所以请你原谅我!

15/8/10, 12.18am

B: 你可以理智也可以坚决.放心. :) 我选择在你睡觉时间传，也只想要发梦.你生日过了，梦工厂也该收工了.一切恢复正常.晚安. :")
* 眼泪竟然无禁止的流..反反复复，反反复复........

15/8/10, 12.20am

S: 傻瓜，晚安..... :")

15/8/10, 12.35am-02.20am
B傻傻的看着"出水芙蓉"...笨笨的笑..

15/8/10, 02.25am
B该睡觉了.......躺在床上..眼泪像流水一样不停的不停的流着..
原来B可以无止境的在乎，无止境的想念在梦工厂的S......

dangerous.....

i found malaysia really is a dangerous country..
y?? y?? y??
oni 1 1/2 hrs park d car outside..
glass breaking..
ya.. i shall say my friend never aware malaysia is "dark"..
hahahaha..
he left his laptop inside his car..
jus left it..
he though night time is safe..
but it is most dangerous..
yet.. glass breaking..
new car.. just tinted..
how waste..
laptop.. 17inch laptop..
o my.. very waste..
but luckly ppl is ok..
den tat will be fine..
ini la Malaysia Boleh!! ><

is weekend......

shall i say.....
evrybody are having their sweet weekend..
i got to work..
hmm.. i dont mind to work..
but jus feel tired d..
sleepy..
woohoo..
b positive..
i wan b positive..
jia you jia you..

* i miss "you" d..
"you" lost again..
'tata'.....

时间

今天...
Charmaine 开始交待一些些有关文件给我了..
那就是说,离她离开的日子慢慢的接近了..
她今天说她可以常常回来探望我..
我竟然说:探望又不是天天在..
hmm..我几时变得小孩子了?
我尊重她..
只要她开心..
但，还是不舍得..
没她在..生活好像会有点点苦闷..
没人陪我哈啦了.. :(
从她说要离开时,我总强忍着伤心..
我知道她也忍了很久才决定的..
我都有努力在她面前笑哦..
也一字不提起她要离开的事实..
我必须要争气..
好好加油吧..

我的奇迹..

仅仅持续了三天而已..
它已不在..
我不该再期待.. ^^
因为那本来就不属于我..

woohoo!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just can say.............
i got another miracle again..
hahahahaha..
although im the one look for "you" first..
but there is respon from "you" oso..
im loving it!!
a small respon can really caused me happy happy happy..
how powerful "you" are huh?
i wont let "you" noe.. XP
i wil keep for myself..
neh neh bu bu..
just too excited.. so simple i am..
la~la~la~la~la~la~
i wan "you"..
i wish everything will jus continue & wont change..
will it be?
i dont know..
let see.. ^^

MIRACLE

i love miracle..
but sometime i just cant get it..
last9.. althought is "your" birthday..
but i think im more happy den "you".. ^^
thanks for calling me..
i know it may oni last9..
but i still keep it with treasure..
im just simple..
nothing much "you" have to do for me..
i just need "you"..
i love the way "you" call me *hubby*..
thats oni for "you"..
thanks "you" told me "you" miss me..
i miss "you" too..
extremely miss "you"..
thanks "you" gave me kiss..
althought it is oni from the bubble talk..
but i keep it well..
nother treasure.. XD
"you" promise "you" will come subang parade to visit me..
wuhoooooo..
do "you" know how happy i am? XDD
soonest..
i gonna see "you" soonest..
la~la~la~la~la~la~
just cant wait to see "you"..

i wish............ miracle come true..

10/8/2010

the day for "you"..
god created "you" on today..
how amazing "you" are..
but it is no longer for me..
that is for others..
last9, "you' text me..
"祝我生日快乐...晚安.."
what can i say?
just feel heart pain..
"you" know..
i so wish to call in first to wish "you" happy birthday..
but i didn't..
i just keep silent..
whose know.. "your" text..
change my step..
i gave "you" birthday song..
caused "you" cried..
sorry baby..
i doesn't mean that..
is "your" day..
i shall not to make "you" cry..
im sorry..
i wish "you" can enjoy "your" big day..
wish "you" have a wonderful & unforgotable birthday..
happy birthday to "you".. ^^

:(

yday charmaine told me she gonna leave d..
i shall ask why?
but i know what is going on..
i jus sad..
since alfa til now..
i been follow her & i love to work v her..
i was thinking what am i gonna do next?
she leave, shall i leave too?
i dont know..
i just love to work v her..
but i got no power to change anything..
i know her well..
once she decided..
she will keen to do it..
except there is something or others thing change her mind..
hmm.. i wish there really have something to change her mind..
so, wait & see..

will there have any miracle?
i wish to have..
i wish she will not leave..
please god..

我相信

每一天 睁开眼 时间改变着一切
风吹过 望着天 飘忽不定的感觉
不想说 是与非 是非都没有绝对
可是我 不后悔 因为有你在身边

Cuz I believe Cuz I believe
每个呼吸 都有意义
逝去的太多啊 没有时间叹息
再迷惘 也继续

Cuz I believe Cuz I believe
你说的一切 我都相信
你握着我的手 看着我的眼睛
我比谁 都确定 你的心

每一天(每一天) 梦在飞(梦在飞)
翅膀累了不停歇
挥着手 想着谁 回忆是我的依恋
受了伤(受了伤) 掉眼泪(掉眼泪)
你就出现在眼前
约定的(你我约定的) 都兑现(全部都兑现)
给我最美的画面

Cuz I believe Cuz I believe
每个呼吸 都有意义
逝去的太多 没有时间叹息
再迷惘 也继续

Cuz I believe Cuz I believe
你说的一切 我都相信
你握着我的手 看着我的眼睛
我比谁 都确定 你的心

Cuz I believe Cuz I believe
你说的一切 我都相信
你握着我的手 看着我的眼睛
我比谁 都确定 你的心



多少可以真的相信???

Saturday 7/8/2010..

Today suppose im will be celebrating mummy birthday..
today is her big day....... :(
i cant even have time to have dinner with her..
cant even have proper time sing birthday song & cut cake with her..
working.. busy working..
sorry mummy..
sorry fei pet..
last weekend fei pet birthday i oso cant manage to celebrate with her..
sorry everybody..
today outlet also a bit too quiet..
hmm.. wondering.. how can it be?
maybe it is still early?
i dont know..
shall think positive..
weekend usually people sleep until sun raise up d rite?
maybe...
i just want customer..
serving customer time passing faster..
if not keep facebook-ing oso getting boring.. ><
tonite may hang till late again..
promise her to bring her go makan makan..
hope she getting better la..
last9 heard she keep crying..
pity on her..
must gambateh o.. :)

cheers vv..

蘑菇头不见噜......

今天早上去剪了头发..
我的蘑菇头不见了..

但，坏坏的尾巴还在.. XPP
爱.....自恋.. XD

今天showroom还是有点太静了..
可能还没是周末吧..
来来来..
自恋时间咯..

顺便帮我的手表打一打广告..
哈哈哈哈哈..

想睡觉了.... zZzzZzz
近来没什么够睡..
昨天开着电视，开着电脑，开着灯..
我就睡着了.. =="
还蛮服我自己的..
哈哈哈..
今天剪头发时,和S.T聊起了"你"..
他问我，我放下"你"了吗?
我发现我的回答是完全没有..
是吗?不懂了..
只是很想念"你"..

facebook-ing..

in outlet i shall much more relax o what?
i keep facebook-ing this few days..
den.. i start to play baking life & fashion world..
o my.. i just cant stand myself doing this kind of stuff..
kinda crazy rite?
but i jus cant stop..
yet, i stl very hardworking..
while work, i stl concentrate & work hard..
morning got text mgs from ee..
yum cha tml nite.. :(
so sad i cant mk it..
so cham..
can anyone tel me..
when can i rest & hang out?
so wish i can hang out..
always store myself inside this outlet..
scare one day i will lost in d world..
jus dono wat is happening outside.. ><
5 more days will be ur birthday d..
how are "you" going to celebrate?
v ur beloved?
i was wonder..
wish to ask too..
but i shut up..
no longer my business..

wish "you" happy birthday in advance..
may "you" happy always.. ^^

WANTED!!

where are all the people going??
i want CUSTOMER!!

Anyone interested to work??
i need STAFF!!

Your called..

dropping my tears non-stop..
thank you "you" said tat "you" like it..
thank you im not out of "your" network..
im stl will get "your" call..
so wish "you" really will look for me..
i know "you" really trying hard get out from my life..
go as far as "you" can..
just wish there are something change..

*sob*

我送了..

今天早上..
我送了..
"你"的生日礼物..
但，你给我的回应是要我拿回去..
我明白我不该送..
只想在你的生日送上我想送你的..
并没有想过应该不应该..
可能对很多人来说有点太贵了..
但,我还是买了..
就没想太多..
希望"你"会喜欢..

这个月没事还是别出街.. =="

A reply that short..

actually digi was closing bill since 25 of july..
but i never tell "you"..
i stl wonder shall i tell "you" to request the money or i pay for "you"?
yet, i hang till today..
i decided to tell "you"..
its not my responsibility to pay for "you" anymore..
yet, "you" are not using it to keep in touch with me..
& we no longer in any relationship..
a text for "you" in the morning..
never expecting "you" will reply..
suprise that "you" reply me around 9am..
shall i happy?
short reply..
thank & will bank in to my account..
shall no expecting..
shall no disappointed..
now i know..
day is going thru fast..
tml will be my fei pet birthday lu..
but i have to work..
will buy her a cake & share v mummy when her birthday arrive too..
always share bcos mummy birthday is on 7 aug.. ^^
10 more days will be "your" birthday d..
im planning to buy "you" smt..
but........... i dont know should or shouldn't?
do i have miracle?
be patient & wait..

Copy from Emage.. I love this.. :)

想念一个人是很美妙的…
若对方也一样的想念自己是很幸福的…
想念你是不需要理由的…
但我只想给你知道我在这里想念着你…
对你的思念从没减少过，而是增加了…
想念你却说不出口…
也不能告诉你…
只好把对你的思念埋藏在心里…
不懂远方的你感觉的到吗？


我不只想念"你"...
而是非常想念"你"...
but i will just keep "silent"..
i won tell "you".. :)

My Car.. :(

got a big crash on my little blue grey.. :(
heart so pain..
yday while going bec to hq to send that stupid not functioning vacuum..
manatao tat stupid trolley unstable..
slip in fall..
so.......... crash on my little blue grey driver door..
WT!!!!!!!
i almost cry..
moving out everything..
look for parking..
look at d crash..
my heart was death..
hahahaha..
kua zhang..
stupid..
im trying to safe it..
but it cant..
nothing much i can do..
i don noe how?
jus leave it d..
so feel of cry..
dis morning show to mummy..
she jus speechless..
oni tin she told me..
today "special" ma.. =="
a bit zha dao..
means today got number to buy..
o my god..
mayb kena den i can bring for spay..
hahaha.. :P
got to cheer o..
don worry be happy.. :)

我想要说............

我想要说......
我累了..
眼睛很痛..
昨天靠自己幸运的开了一张单..
高兴.. ^^
希望接下来我还可以更顺利..
要加油哦!!!!! ^^

someday/few days/what is the day??

Standfer Lim
is tire..
is stressful..
is moody..
is down..
is blur..
is forgetful..
is shit..
BUT!! i still be positive.. :)
i am not a perfect person..
just wish to voice here..
nothing much..
can i say i miss "you"?
even "you" are not worth for me to say that..
but i wish to say it here..
i wish "you" can support me..
even i have all my friends to suppost me..
i wish "you" can share with me..
but "you" are no longer here anymore..
so, be silent mode.. :X

tml will be the day!!

24th July......
Cozzia new outlet short opening..
im nervous..
i feel like lots of stuff not finish yet..
but i cant count what is the matter not complete??
yet, i started to feel tire..
honestly..
i do not know why?
just feel like tire..
feel like rest..
but now, at this moment, i can not do it..
what shall i do?
thinking positive!!
i can do it!!
i always be..
try my best & do it in a right way..
no mistake again k?
keep getting shoot..
nevermind.. i can tk it!!
this is one thing good on my pesonality..
hahahahahaha.. ><
i will gambateh!! :)