31.12.2011

I got these from someone last night..

No idea why she gave me these?

But Im appreciated.. :)

This is far from Singapore..

Tomo arigato.. :)

It been follow me shaking for a whole day no matter whr I go..

When I look at it, recall me on the someone messy look..

I feel funny and so no image of her..

Hahaha.. (she gonna kill me, I guess)

Turn on fb today, everybody are talking about ending of 2011 and hoping of 2012.

Everybody sharing and asking for count down tonight..

Well, I admit I admire ppl can go count down, even my sis..

I gave her go of early today..

Yet, im working..

I guess I will be count down my 2012 at federal highway.. -,-

What to do?

Awaiting for tomorrow..

Finally, my off day arrived..

Been tired for a week..

Almost gone crazy.. ><

Alright, I will be right back..

Happy new year world.. :)

May all the good come to me..

Bad go away.. HUAT AH!!

Crazy.. :p

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Are you ready?

Step in a new begining and say goodbye to the past.

Im not........... -,-

Too sudden it have end of 2011..

Last day..

Yet, Im working..

I think I will be count down at mid of the road when Im home.. :)

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谢谢你

谢谢你今天让我发了那仅仅4个小时的梦..

即使短暂，即使我懂明天一切将恢复正常..

但，我铭记在心底的深处..

我会好好的珍惜与惜福.. ^^

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大众情人

今天突然被一位朋友说:

"诶，我觉得你就像是大众情人"

我莫名奇妙的看着她.. ><

我不明白为什么?

她说，你不适合任何人因为你对每一个人都好.

哈哈..

但，这不是我要的..

我只对她笑了笑.. :)

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突然想起一件事

曾经有个人对我说过:

女人的第六感很准

超准

其实，不是每一个女人的第六感都准

只因有时准确度会有偏差

有时你以为你可以有机会了

但，偏偏机会只是和你插肩而过

有时你感觉好像对了

但，那有没有感觉对错了呢？

其实人，没有100%的预感

我，喜欢即时行乐

很多时候我会后悔我做的

因为失去理智的做了不该做的

但，我不做那我又不懂结果是什么？

好奇？不是..

只不想在我的人生留有遗憾

结局或许不是很理想

或许不是我要的

但，我心甘情愿

这世界没有一定要你付出多少你就得回多少的道理

开心，没遗憾或许更来得重要吧

你可以说我不理智，不现实

人生嘛.....

短短几十年

错过了就是错过了

何必执着呢？

很多人说我是个 happy go lucky 的人

我是吗？

看情况吧

我还没那么的宽容，伟大

哈哈

Insomnia Night

The time is almost 4am now

i'm still here

couldn't fall asleep

thinking of something

somethings just mess up my mind, my life

again?

NOPE.........

always be

human are such a weird animal

yet, i'm one of it

do you have any idea which type of animal are you?

i'm the "fan jian" type

the night i couldn't sleep because of you

you told me you always know what i'm thinking

no matter what it is

than, how about now?

tell you,

what you told me the last 2 days,

all still inside my heart. :)

才没两句话..

到底是你太在意?

还是我已习惯?

刚刚的那通电话我不是该开心的吗?

开心着你打来的当时就被你盖了电话..

无奈..

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特别的感觉?

今天的午餐是和我生命重要的女人之一一起共进.. :)

终于我们可以真的坐下来聊聊了..

她还是一样..和我一样忙..

觉得她好好笑，也很贴心..

她男朋友打来，她尽然说她在'犒仔'.. @@

我告诉她我最近发生的事与某些生活变化..

她开心的说这是件好事..

但我不觉得..

原因.................

不懂..

我只做我想做的.. :)

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Task before sleep

Look at my love fei pet... XD

We are doing mask now..

After this, she will become more pretty due to the magic.

Hahaha.. :p

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What a Sunday.. :)

Full of my schedule..

Last night after dinner I went for my fav Beer drink again..

Well, my promise to STOP drinking when im 28, can I do that?

I dont know? But I will try.. :)

Reach home @ 2am..

Continue my sit up..

My cousin said: when u start to do sit up must continue, u cant stop in the middle, will caused u more FAT..

Oppss.. I'm scare of that.. Even it was late night im stl doing..

Fall asleep @ around 3am I think.. :p

Set 4 alarm to wk myself up @ 8am..

My alarm start ringing from 715am.....

Do u ever see pig? Yes I am...

Golek here n there..

Manja my lovely bed, unwilling to wk up..

Finally, 815am... U heard of pig shouting: "shit"!

im late.. Hv to go out and rush back before 930am.

Asked my sis to be my delivery girl.. :p

Someone not allow I waste petrol of purposely go subang.

So, I very guai and im lucky.. I got delivery girl..

Dono y? Feel like doing these for u.. Dont ask me..

I have no idea..

I just got a feeling of be with u n manja u.. :)

tell u smt, the bkt I went 3 bkt restaurant to find..

First one kat bekery dont have claypot type, second one kat eng ann dah jual habis.. @@

Im stupid.. I forgot nearby my house got one I always went to eat..

Pigi jauh jauh buat apa? ><

Ok.. done everything.. But forgot buy yao zha guai..

Haih.. No time.. Pai seh..

Mission complete..

950am..

Badminton time..

Long time did not go for it..

After second round, hand started pain.. @@

Gorshh.. I must tahan cant gv up neh..

So long I din sweat like today..

Very cao cao but im enjoy.. :)

Stl my love sport..

Thanks da jie change my racket net n handle..

Appreciated.. :)

Went mummy shop after badminton..

So the hungry..

Actually morning haven eat already go for badminton.. @@

Today is ah gong d 忌日..

Mummy early morning busy here n there ready for bai bai..

Got lots of dishes to eat..

Well, im like hundred yr never eat..

What oso I sapu.. FAT! :p

Hang around thr till 3pm wait my love fei pet den v went home..

After bathe, pigi nap..

So tired n sleepy..

Slep til 6pm.. Sweat again because din on air cond..

Wk up kept sneezing..

Feel like sick.. Uncomfortable..

Brought my fei pet n the little fatty go kp buy x'mas present.

V gonna hv gift exchange on x'mas eve.. :)

Than v went for kfc..

Feel like got cheated from kfc of their on9 free voucher.

Went thr only saw they stick on the notice of ALL GIVE AWAY, no longer valid.. $&@#%

If lik tat I would not go for it..

Well, my beloved brother wanna hv it, what to do?

after dinner, brought him to buy his shoe for scl..

Bata oso having sales, 1 shoe @ rm32, 2 shoe @ rm40.

Omg.. Apa dunia ini?

Habis beli, went the store brought his underwear n my stocking + boxer.. :p

than go find my love ka zua..

She kept nagging on me..

Because that day was on the phone v her half way n I forgot to call her back.. Oppss.. :p

Dah.. im home now n blogging..

I enjoy my day..

Cheers... :)

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My new shoe

Love it so.. <3

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Last Day!!

This is my Last Day at the place don't even have flies.. @@

Its great... woohoo..

Today I'm lonely.. Alone here.. ><

Due to my sister is OFF..

Movie accompany me.. Article accompany me.. :)

I will be fine..

Last night brought her went Cheras pasar malam..

She caused me broke.. -,-

She brought 3pants (2 for outing, 1 for tidur)

den 1 shirt and 1 singlet.

well, i have mine too..

my shoe.. hehe..

will update later..

its a simple grey colour shoe but i love it so much.. :)

do you guys notice?

Actually pasar malam food will caused u spend more?

2 of us oni brought few lap lap zap zap, it cost us bout rm40 neh..

wondering.. what had we ate?

went home was about 1230am.

tired n exhausted.. sleep like pig.. :p

this morning almost late for work.

dont like kinda hurry feeling.

early morning rushing here n there.. sigh =.=

X'mas n New Year coming soon.

Any plan? tired of think about plan but luckily I got my lovely fei pet.

She plan of having bbq at home and a small present exchange as well.

oh o.. wat should i buy?

think, think, think..

郁可唯 - 好朋友只是朋友

作词：黄婷

作曲：徐伟铭

听你说什么我都很快乐

接近你连影子都微笑着

几千只纸鹤你都耐心地陪着我折

却怎么都折不掉那道无形的隔阂

越懂你陪着你就越寂寞

灵魂那么美我却碰不得

感觉再炽热也不能让飞蛾去扑火

靠近你的梦难道就能不是我

好朋友只是朋友

还是朋友 不能够占有

好朋友疯狂以后

就一个人走 无所求

好朋友只是朋友

只能保留 一点点温柔

我知道什么时候回头

不打扰你的自由

认识你也许我就足够了

缘分的深浅我都不管了

可能你感动也看不见我心如刀割

哪怕很痛过 至少就不算错过

好朋友只是朋友 还是朋友

不能够占有

好朋友疯狂以后 就一个人走

无所求

好朋友只是朋友

只能保留 一点点温柔

我知道什么时候回头

不打扰你的自由

爱人不是最好的朋友

朋友再好也不能牵手

感情在天平两头 谁都怕太沉重

好朋友只是朋友 还是朋友

不能够占有

好朋友疯狂以后 还是一个人走

无所求

好朋友只是朋友

只能保留 一点点温柔

我知道什么时候回头

不打扰你的自由

感叹

刚刚又看了一篇短文

这两天来，我还看了蛮多短文的.

太闲了在一个鸟不生蛋的地方工作. @_@

人生的无常还真让人无法抓摸.

话说:-

培薇是个Axxxxx的高级总监.

在公司她高傲的外表，敏锐的眼光，果断的除事方式.

往往你也只可以对她甘拜下风.

她的好胜，不服输给人一种高不可攀的心态.

现在她依然高高在上，没人能比.

但，她却在一本书籍访谈述说着她成功背后付出的努力与她在两者之间扮演的角色.

她说: 其实我并没有你们想象的好，我并不独立，我并不坚强.

一个高高在上的女人夸口说下这话时，身边的访问者都惊讶的看着她.

她继续的说: 我背后有着一个爱我的她.她不是个男人，而是个女人. (大多数人瞪大眼睛的看着眼前的这位地位高昂的总监，只有吓呆的眼神.)

你们别吓着了，这秘密藏在我心里快16年了.

她陪在我身边，从我们还是朋友直到我们在一起，将近快21年了.

我们在这国家没办法结婚，生育但我们相爱着.其实我身边不是每一个人都懂. 即使是我的家人.

我无怨无悔.她对我的好不是常人所能理解.人说感觉对了就是对了.

其实并不，因为只有感觉的爱情是无法经营的.

因为起初我并不是因为感觉对而选择她的.

往往反而感觉对的人却是伤害你的人，不是吗? (培薇笑了笑)

其实她没有很大的事业，我的她只是个造型师.

曾经，身边的朋友都说她为了我的钱，地位?

但我发现，钱和地位到底可以让你买到多少温暖?

我们在一起的16年来，她没花过我的钱你们相信吗？

除了我自愿送她的礼物吧.

刚她事业开始时，她没有很大的本事，但她却让我觉得温暖.

那一年，她18岁，我21岁.

其实我家可以让我们上高级餐厅，但她总告诉我，除了我生日我允许你请我吃饭.其他日子都让我请好吗?我答应你，我不会要让你难堪.

我刚开始没办法接受她的用意.总是闹辩扭.发脾气.

告诉她，我与我家人的地位与人面.

但，她却笑着对我说: 我会让你明白我的用意.

记得第一次的约会，她亲自下厨为我烹饪了"烛光晚餐".

在她那时租的小房子里.

她奇妙的布置了餐桌，放了片卡带.里头有着餐厅的吵杂声，音乐声.

她第一次让我明白环境是可以改变的，人也是可以接纳的.

顿时，浪漫与温暖环绕着我.

(说到这，她甜甜的笑着.)

在我大学毕业后开始了我上班族的生活.我开始帮我父亲公司上的业务.

刚开始，我们变得很少见面.

她了解我的忙碌，静静的不打扰我. (因为我必须在最短的时间内学会一切)

每当我有任何事，闷了，不开心了，压力了.

我总把这一些发在她身上.

然而，她不曾埋怨反而给我鼓励，要我坚强.

面对着她我总是可以卸下我的面具，无私的表露我的任何一面.

她总对我说，你是最棒的. (培薇又是浅浅的笑)

其实工作的压力我不能对着任何人讲，发泄.

从小，父亲给我的锻炼就是要高傲的，让人尊敬的.

但其实我并不想要.只是我没得选择.

所以她就成了我的沙包咯.呵呵.

这两年来，当我渐渐意识到我该把这段感情公开让我家人知道了.

我该坦诚了.我用了好一段时间做着准备.

就在去年的圣诞节前夕，说好了我们到我家一趟和我家人一起度过.

但她突然没出现，电话打通了.接的却是医护人员时，我的心揪了. (培薇眼眶开始红了)

还依稀记得，她当时在我赶到医院时，她依然笑着对我说: "嫁给我"

她要我在她口袋里找到了一枚戒指.她说那戒指她买了快4年了，希望我不嫌弃.

她告诉我她要照顾我，继续疼爱我.

但她补充了句对不起因为她可能没能力了. (这时培薇眼泪开始一颗颗掉了下来)

抱歉，我失礼了. (培薇哽咽着)

我在所有人面前第一次无忌的放声大哭.

我不想失去她.我拼了命的对她说，她对我很重要.

我不允许她离开我.

她依然轻轻的握着我的手，浅浅的笑着说: 别哭，我会心疼.

我答应你，我在天国守护你好不好?

不，不.....我不希望这会是我们的结局.

16年，好不容易我们可以告诉这世界了.

对不起，对不起.要你等了我16年.

(培薇颤抖着，眼泪不停的往下掉)

看着培薇手上的戒指，其中一位访问者轻声的问: 这就是那戒指吗?

是的.我答应了她，我要嫁给她.

只是我们生活在不一样的世界了.

我坚强的面对，过着她留给我的回忆.

看到这，你的感想是什么?

其实，这短文还蛮长的，我缩短了.因为后面还有关于她的工作史.

它只是个故事？还是真人真事？

没人懂.

只是，它让我觉得无奈.

感叹这世界的不完美.

Starbucks <3

昨夜因为我爱的咖啡，

我失眠了..

又是一个想你的夜晚..

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I have time to blog now

Went for itu pet po punya page..

Woah.. i been so many months did not go visit her.

sekaligus I finish until the last post i went.

It was August 2011.

So long Im missing from here? Wondering..

this 2 days I kept thinking of somebody after the night I drunk and slept @ 4smt in the morning.

5smt in the morning, my headboard storage place dropping down an unnecessary stuff and knock my head.

I woke up and look on it, put it back, continue sleep.

I felt I miss her.

a lots

but I telling myself not to be.

I passing thru time, day, date.

Just to put away.

Well, I know I'm okey.

I will be fine.

Tough enough.

A knock make you shown again in my mind.

You are powerful, you are amazing.

But, it was my past tense right?

Recently busy like nobody yet I know how to release myself.

I know how to rewards myself. :)

hmm.. talk about rewards, I'm spending too much. oppss..

Last night out of suddenly, I took out all the NEW clothes I brought.

Arrhhhhhhh........ (I scream to myself)

Banyaknya..

What I have:

1) Long Pant for work x 2 (Still need to buy another 1 cotton and 1 jeans)

2) Shirt for work x 8 (A bit over)

3) Short pant for outing x 5 (Sudah gila, can keep for next year I guess)

4) Polo-T for outing & work x 6 (Feel like not enough, can buy extra?)

5) Round neck T for outing x 7 (Crazy, don't even know when I brought so many?)

6) Shoe x 1 (Need to buy sport shoe some more)

7) Coat x 1 (more than enough)

8) Short pant for bed time x 1 (Cukup)

9) Singlet & round neck T for bed time x 2 (Cukup)

10) Stocking x 2 (Need to buy extra)

11) Wax, Spray x 1 (May need to an extra to keep)

GILA RIGHT???

I haven' t report to my CFO, I think she gonna kill me soon. lol

Well, habis story first.

Will come back here more often than. :)

停留

停留在那时的不愉快..
停留在那时的过去..
停留在那时的回忆..
停留在那时的感情..
停留在那时的亲情..
停留在那时的友情..
停留在那时的一切一切..
已不再是那懵懂的大家..

有时

我也只不过想给你一个小小的关心..

别把我的关心当作是试探或.............

朋友间存在不是这样..

人，都会寂寞..

人，都会空虚..

我没什么朋友..

各有各忙..

你多久没有主动邀约我了？

我和他/她出去玩并不代表我和他/她就特别要好..

我也希望和你很要好..

只是，人，和，地，利..

时间不对，我没话说..

我害怕是因为你总是歇斯底里，歇斯底里的..

说好了不谈就不谈好吗？

我不要我们又回到像以前那时...

我还希望我们可以是谈得来的朋友..

只是，这个敏感话题抱歉..

我没办法..只因你们都是我朋友..

我不想帮任何一方..

抱歉..

一星期过去了

我没有任何怨言..

没任何责怪，责备..

静静的等着你..

乖乖的，不吵闹..

心里就算有千百的不明白但我依然选择不闻不问..

你爱的不是我..

不是他..

只是你自己..

没关系，我们分了没关系..

这不是你的问题..

只怪我曾经太过爱你..

我的明天的明天的明天一定会更好..

The day you leave

i did not drop my tears in front of u..

i be calm and talk nicely to u..

i know u don like to hear what i ngam cham..

i know u feel nei jiu..

no worry..

im fine..

i will tk good care of myself s i promise u earlier..

no worry..

im fine..

s what im expected earlier..

you will leaving me once again..

i will let you go..

just because i love you Ms.S.....

i wish i can tell u...

is not easy for a person love you tat much even u don really love..

i stl can tk it..

no worry..

i will smile for my day.. ^^

Lazy Wednesday

Well........

My brother is back to Malaysia last9.. :)

Home sweet home.. XD

mummy was woke up mid of the night and realize he is around..

shock on it.. haha.. damn fun.. :P

but still the same..

the hurting part..

"你付出的，总没价值"

im fine.. i can take it.. :)

planning was made together..

but end up im was not who got appreciation..

nevermind, i get use to it..

went for car servicing this morning..

car cannot start in the early morning..

gorsh!! scare me le..

but i know its time to change my battery..

well, $$ fly again..

haih.. everything costly la wei..

taiwan trip coming soon.. money needed..

brother new semester coming soon..

$$ needed again..

total i need to have RM4k+..

haih......... money money..

can i use to put put out wo? hahaha.. XD

船到桥头自然直.....

三星期后的更新

懒人几乎不想动..

错，我是太忙了..

几乎和朋友们少了互动..

很多事想说..

很多话想留..

三星期里发生了太多太多事..

无法一时之间想起来..

人老了..不重用.. XD

我的工作..

依然繁忙..

越来越不想留在这..

哈!!!

可笑..

总是像一颗球被踢来踢去..

没美色，没交游广阔..

带不出门..

好像是如此吧..

原来答应的结果，我也不过如此..

还是老一句：“忍”

朋友们..

各有各忙..

所谓你都没找我，我干嘛找你？

拥有酱的心态对还是错？

没意见..

这是一个朋友回我的一句话当我和他说：我们很久没出去了哦？

算了..

没力气说些什么..

家人..

期待我家老弟回来..

明天..明天他就回来了.. :)

我fei pet昨天生日..

知道她很不开心..

但她总是坚强的伪装..

然后一个一个的祝福别人..

我该问天理何在？

她对待每一个人都很好..

为什么上天总是要如此的对她？

这一次输在距离..

对不起，我只能说：烂!!

那么的容易动摇本来就不是什么爱!!

真爱不会被任何事情打败..

就算你说了你多么的爱她..

当你离她而去的那一刻，所谓的爱已化为乌有..

别再来欺骗她..

放她自由，让她选择更好的幸福..

我的你..

谢谢你对我的坦诚..

我已有足够的心理准备..

我会祝福你，让你离开.. :)

亲爱的..

很久没酱叫你了.. :P

你的她知道了不知道会不会杀死我..哈哈..

想和你说.......

感情世界里要的是沟通..

不是呕气..

多难说出口都得沟通..

祝福你..

就酱..

得空再来.. :)

等着你的回应

你又放我飞机..

忘了给我回电话..

即使我还是主动联络你了..

没接听，也没回复..

你让我矛盾不知到底该不该再继续联络你..

很想再一次的责备你..

但还是算了..

同样的问题讲了又讲已没意义..

你忘了，你的遗漏..

就算我重复提起..

没被想起还不是一样？

我曾经认为自己对你是多么的肤浅..

如今，我知道的是..

我连逗留在你名单的份都没有..

别怪我对你的冷漠..

mind is open

Bi........

Sorry I'm not the perfect person you ask for..

I can't give you perfect life you wish to..

I can't be you perfection partner in the other half of your life..

I wish I could..

I wish I am..

yet, except Sorry nothing much I can say..

I understand what is the feeling of a mother..

especially the mother who really loves you and cares you..

I love you..

and I love your mummy too..

I did.. I really did..

the only thing I can do for you is respect..

out of that nothing I can contribute..

boy friend..

Sorry, I can't help for anything..

if there is any suitable candidate..

go for it.. have a try..

I will always support you..

trust me..

I don't wish our relationship now make it worst like last time..

I enjoy the moment I had with you..

I appreciated what I have now..

I don't really care what is that so important for being open relationship..

I don't mind it is only share within 2 of us..

记忆的存档

人，随着年纪的增长..

慢慢的会把记忆放进脑部最深的存档..

不是没回忆..

只是渐渐的记不起..

渐渐的忘了..

突然，我去了你的专业..

翻下很久很久前的留言..

找回2009我给你的生日祝福..

说长不长，说短不短..

但，我们都在这几年改变了..

曾经我们许诺未来的每一年我们都要一起庆祝..

一起吹蜡烛..

曾经我给你的承诺..

不管将来变得怎样，

我都会像最早一样每天给你传简讯..

常常给你打电话..

但，时间的流逝..

我，又真的有做到了吗？

坦白的说，我承认我渐渐的做不好..

不是我不要，而是工作的忙碌.. (虽然不是个借口)

从一个月里会有一两天忘了找你..

直到现在我们都会在对方的生活圈里失踪很多天..

然后再出现..

然而，近来我更想失踪更多更多天..

你现在的生活毕竟有了不一样的变化..

我了解，也尊重你..

请原谅我，如果我对你的态度不一样了..

我害怕心情上无法衡量..

随时爆发..

抱歉..

I'm Sorry

I'm SORRY~~

doesn't mean to hurt you..

i'm telling my heart feeling to you..

is because I need you for sharing..

I need you to be caring..

I don wan you to be so cooling to me..

tell me.. how long you need to calm yourself?

I will give you time..

I'm so SORRY..

原来

一切都不一样了..

心揪了一下..

我还是在乎的..

我的预料..

我的第六感..

原来可以那么的准..

隐隐作痛

不是我不能..

不是我不要..

只是我没有足够的勇气..

我没有百分百的力气..

原谅我..

几天里..

反复的看着传出去的信息..

心想我还真过分..

但，当下的心情又有谁能理解？

心.....

负荷不了那痛..

曾经的那么要好..

如今的陌生让我有点不习惯..

近况分享

看一看原来我超久没来这了..

工作忙得不可开交..

"没时间，我没时间" by Karen Mok

我发现提升的薪水换来更大更大的工作量..

本来就该要有更大的工作量..

但，老天你的玩笑开大了..

我的工作量是非常非常的大..

每一天早出晚归..

算了..撑多三个月吧..

再没达到我要的，我会提出辞呈..

努力会有结果的不是吗？ (呵..冷笑..)

我发现我没看人的眼光..

该说如此还是我太相信人了？

提别人着想换来的.......................

没事..我还撑的住..

虽然，我不是万能但这世界上却没有什么是万万不能的..

我该说抱歉，我不想让你难过..

我不是故意要让你落泪..

我并不想把话说得那么难听..

只是，你总是让我失望..

一次又一次..

身为你的朋友，我会为你着想..

那你呢？替我着想了吗？

失望加失落真的在昨天重重的压在心上..

看着那封你传来的信息我真的无言..

身为你的朋友..

还是希望你好好保重..

别再看着信息驾车..

很危险..

抱歉，我需要时间抚平自己..

健康..

背部痛得不像话..

工作..

又是为了那烂工作..

哈哈..

没有足够的休息..

明天休假也得回去工作..

真是够了..

医生，我又要去光顾你了..

给我点时间..

现在没空..

真想一天有48小时.. :P

金钱..

严重不够用..

去台湾的资金被拿出来用了..

为了家里..

没办法..

加油，一定存得回的..

死党..

很久没和我的死党外出了..

又是为了那该死的工作..

我想念你们了.. ><

家人..

很久没问候我老弟了..

虽然不就前他才给我打电话..

但还是想念他了..

不知他过得好不好？

还有那刁蛮的妹妹..

该说她近来变了吧..

变得比较能沟通了吧..

我家fei pet..

好久没和她出去了..

想念和她打混的日子..

小的那个..

没时间理他.. @@

爹地，妈咪..

还是老样子..

吵吵闹闹的..

我家的"你"

进一步发展..

可喜可贺..

还是老一句..

顺其自然..

就此告别..

得空再来..

06/06/11

fair is ended..
well.......
result is unacceptable..
we have big lose in this fair..
but we had tried our best.. very very best..
right.. after the fair we went for celebration..
with that kind of result we still go for celebration..
ermm.. feel sorry to those bosses but boss panggil apa boleh buat?
i drunk like mate..
minum banyak banyak..
den.. i was vomitting in my own car..
SHIT!!
it was so disgusting..
and this is the first time..
i know i shall not sharing here..
but dis is my memory..
i was almost home when i vomit..
just 1 more road to go le.. ><
well.. i learn a lesson..
next round will tk full my meal b4 i drink.. :P
now, was hanging around dekat station one v my sis, her partner and her fren..
i start sneezing..
feeling of flu..
feeling sick..
ouch.. dont sick..
i wanna fight for more and better..
o!! shall sharing a good news here..
i get promoted..
10% increament and extra allowance..
finally, thank god.. :)
will work more harder to fight for better..

first day of the fair

well......

the result was very bad..

unacceptable..

now.. wait for tomorrow to fight again..

right.. gonna take bathe and sleep d..

night........... ><

last day of May..

recently i seldom update..

yes i know im busy yet lazy..

hahaha..

you know wat?

i been so tire i dono how to describe it?

i just over hardworking till now im been so so so tire..

end of the mth mean poor before i got my salary..

i wan to have more money so that i can spend it and make our country move..

woah...... crazy...

i realize the god is fair to everybody..

im poor but i have my life with meaningful..

i have my family even we always shouting to each other but we use to be lovely..

i have my friend even we seldom meet up but once we hang together,

we have non-stop story to share about..

i have my work even it is stress but i looking for a better future,

and i believe 1 day what i want and what i get..

i have you even we are not a wonderful couples and no future maybe..

but at least i appreciate the moment i hang with you.. i really love to.. :)

sorry for asking the question because i worry..

"have you ever lie to me on our relationship?"

"NO, NO, NO.."

thanks for the answer..

just receiving a call from my manager..

again broking the promise for giving me stupid idiot commission..

WT......

i been waiting so long..

what had promise always never get..

haha.. shall i look for better job?

i tin i should.. i hate for bring help without nothing!!!

26/05/2011

忙..真的很忙..

忙得不可开交..

但，我享受这份忙..

它让我体验人生必经的道路..

近来阅读着一本书..

相信很多人都看过..

"吸引力法则"

"Law of Attraction"

我爱这本书..

从中我学了很多，很多..

我们人的最大缺点：埋怨，感叹..

在为还没发生的事情自主总结了负面结局..

为何，我们不能把还没发生的事情评语成真面的定论呢？

以下是我在吸引力法则学习的"自主性的吸引3步骤..

STEP 1: 釐清愿望

要让吸引力法则生效的第一步就是弄清楚[你要什么].

难题就在，大多数人都不是很清楚自己{要}什么

但却很知道自己不要什么？

知道自己不要什么是好事。

但往往这好事却会让你埋怨，抱怨而误了大事..

STEP 2: 专注自己的愿望

所谓注意力增强频率，就是对你的愿望灌注更多正面能量与关注.

我们光能辨识我们的愿望是不够的..

我们还必须给予正面的关注力..

如此才能确保我们的愿望和我们目前的频率一致..

STEP 3: 与愿望合一

我们釐清了愿望並给予关注。

最后的步骤就是要如何与我们的愿望合一..

要与愿望合一就是要移除负面能量-怀疑..

.. :)

Think Positive and Win your FUTURE..

Yes or No?

Well.........

recently hottest movie for me..

"Yes or No"

i love it so much..

so many thousand times i had watch, i still can watch again and again.. :)

"brave to love"

my comment to the movie..

so wish 1 day there is somebody really brave to love me..

is my somebody out there?????

hehe.. siao liao..

i'm lazy pig~

i lazy to speak..

i lazy to walk..

i lazy to eat..

i lazy to drink..

i lazy to work..

gorsh!!!

i just wan to hanging around..

i lazy to move on..

really lazy..

yet, im more tire......

for pass 2 week non-stop of working..

non-stop.........

out of sudden, i slow down my schedule..

everytins end...

roadshow end..

ouch!!!!!!!

im sick.......

i dono what am i doing now?

i dono what to do now..

just wan to hanging around....

I found~~~

i getting enjoy to being a sales person.. :)

i love to bargain with customer..

i love to hang around with customer..

i feel happy when i close a case..

although i have to face frustrated, gao kang, "show face" customer..

macam macam ada..

but when i close ur deal mean u die..

hahaha.. XD

update update

been so long i missing.. almost 1 week.. ><

i went penang for exhibition..

this time damn kns exhibition..

less crown..

organizer problem..

we had tried our best..

target couldn't hit..

next round, i will fight all back..

alright..

2nd tins...

i been in a relationship yet complicated..

i will not ask for anytin..

i know you will leave 1 day..

but i willing..

because i love you..

this is wat i have d feeling now..

3rd tins..

itu pet po................

haih.. no comment..

but i tell u wat i c thru on u..

i not sure is it correct o wrong?

but i really feel u care on the person..

is not a wrong tin if continue..

im the kind of person ask for feeling..

so................ tin urself..

im lazy yet sleepy..

allow me to update the others day..

good9 world.......

zZzzzZzzZzZZ

给我家的"凶兔子"

别吃醋..

我说的并不是你想的..

谢谢你昨天让我拥有美好的回忆..

我不要求些什么..

重要的是和你在一起的时候..

我珍惜那每一刻..

抱歉近来脾气暴躁..

就连我老板也如此的说我..

我会检讨..

我明天就去槟城了..

去槟城回来就到你去langkawi了..

又要隔两个星期才能见面.. :(

别偷吃哦.. :P

第五天

吵架，

呕气，

闹脾气，

不理不睬，

迈入第五天..

我竟如此的在意..

还为了这一切对着我家妹妹倒数..

你气消了吗？

我想念你了..

你懂吗？

救命啊.....

害怕..

我真的害怕..

我不想陷下去..

我不想改变..

为什么你提及“不相关人士”，我要发脾气？

我脑袋秀逗了..

每每你说着谁的好，我总在乎..

对你的在乎越来越欲出台面..

冷静下来，冷静下来..

没事的，没事的..

不停的提醒自己..

不停的深呼吸..

03/05/2011

Today is my sis birthday..

wish her happy birthday here.. :)

but she was not around..

since last9 already hang out and will not be back until tonight i guess..

right..

let's talk bout the exhibition just ended..

was very very tired..

this round i dont really earn a lots seriously..

no choice..

i have to make sure the staff i bring along get to earn..

so i was play as their back-up..

next round..

i have the chance to earn more i guess..

i will only rest for this week..

next week will have another fair at penang again..

woohuu...... penang food..

im coming.. :P

recently my life got a big changes..

i don't know how am i going to describe it..

some kind of weird situation..

i'm not sure am i wrong?

how does it last?

i wish i could hold it for..........................

maybe i don't set a date..

let's it be as long as it can..

for 'her'

i wish you can walk out whatever necessary..

i wish is really a end between you and ???..

i don't wish to see you are stuck in the kind of situation anymore..

the feeling is hurt..

get someone who really cares bout you..

get someone who really loves you..

is not that easy i know..

is not that simple i do understd..

but at least you are not stepping in anymore..

gambateh!!

29/04/2011

The day I accept the previous what i have..

how care i am?

you don't even know..

what i need is that simple and easy..

"CARING"

do you know how hurt when you bring a person up to the sky and throw down again?

28/4/2011

为了不同的人做了不同的事..

不一样的感觉..

不一样的想法..

原来我的心可以如此轻易的动摇..

很乱..

没力思考.. ><

The moment when I change

Please don't blame me..

Please don't angry me..

I just need sometime to be sure..

I just need sometime to calm myself..

I just need a space to clarified what is the situation..

That's all..

I'm not weird..

I'm still me..

Apologize.. I'm Sorry..

谢谢你

谢谢你又让我甜甜的笑了..

谢谢你让我有机会见你..

虽然时间很短很短..

虽然我很不舍得..

但我满足了..

谢谢你..

谢谢你在你伤心难过时，你想起了我..

谢谢你依然选择我做你的依靠..

我尊重你..

我不会多问..

只希望你别为了不该为的人，事，物轻易掉眼泪..

我还是会心疼..

你还是有我..

我不会丢下你不管..

我会让你依靠..

我会想很多笑话逗你笑..

让你不亦乐乎..

让你忘怀..

万事有我在.. :)

给：乖宝宝

不是你不够好..

只是你太善良..

别给自己太大的压力..

别让自己太辛苦..

你用你的一切去填补了他的不完美..

足够了，值得了..

现在你该试着返回来更疼爱自己了..

别害怕你要一个人度过..

在这里有我们支持你..

别担心这是个漫长的路途..

在这里有我们扶持你..

我们不会丢下你，我们会一直都在..

陪你走出来，陪你走下去，陪你走到最后..

你必须勇敢的面对..

再大的风浪我们都会替你挡下..

你有我做前锋..

替你呼风唤雨..

你还有一只“猪”(哈哈)做护卫..

替你“保家卫国”..

你的生命有我们的出现..

肯定会比太阳的出现来得更灿烂..

我们没有100%的可能..

但我们有99%的一定能..

答应我们当你陷入低潮时想想我们..

我们都会在你左右..

Is my OFF day

i wish i could just hang on my bed for whole day..

i don't know what can i do?

where can i go?

wanna date somebody out for lunch?

but everybody are work & have class..

i feel lazy to move on..

feeling like hanging on bed is the best..

but....... my brain can't stop moving..

it kept shown many many question..

shown many many 'impossible'..

yes i know i shouldn't hanging..

i shouldn't staying..

i shouldn't expecting..

my heart is just missing a part..

i don't know why i choose to off today?

seem like a stupid doing nothing here..

Generous

I'm being too GENEROUS..

I keep quiet..

Don wan you stuck in Dilemma..

I'm not angry..

Only feel sad & alone..

Feeling you are leaving me far away..

Always you blaming me too busy..

Now, you even busier than me..

Is true "invasion" make me care..

But I still being gentlemen..

Because I really respect on you and care about your feeling..

As you always said, you will only know how to "refuse & reject" me..

This is what I special in your life, right?

Heart Feeling..

This few days I kept emotional..

Kept asking myself "how & why could it be?"

no idea.. really have no idea?

Alright.. Alright..

Start from now I will be more "Square"..

Don't want to stuck in any "impossible" anymore..

Take a deep breathe..

I will be fine.. :)

我

其实并不坚强..

我,

其实并没想像的那么好..

我,

头快要爆炸了..

Out of expectation

I realize I really care..

but I know there is nothing I can do..

there is nothing I can say..

ShhHhhHhh...........

keep quiet..

nothing changes..

i appreciate..

i treasure..

i keep what i have..

原来

原来..

多多少少会有影响..

原来..

多多少少我会在意..

原来..

多多少少感觉酸酸..

原来..

多多少少心里怪怪..

原来..

你在我心里竟如此的有地位..

我的不在乎，我的不在意..

原来，超出我的想象..

踏出去，会害怕..

看着这一切的发生，我竟会觉得不安..

想对你说但我收回了..

很多事，不发展好过发展..

就酱..没事没事..

一家人

什么叫做一家人？

互相扶持..

互相体谅..

互相帮忙..

是的..

我没钱..

最，最，最大的问题是我有负担..

最，最，最不应该的是我乱发脾气..

钱拿在你面前..

我是你姐姐..

你所谓的姐姐..

我几烂，几没钱都好..

我想要的是一起分担..

你车门‘碰’的一声无视于我..

为你着想，忘了沟通..

你的不领情在先..

换了我发脾气在后..

你懂吗..

我站在车门外的那一刻，我感觉自己像个蠢蛋..

你没有错..

你没有问题..

问题在于我..

抱歉..

谢谢你如此为我着想..

我很感激..

又发脾气了..

抱歉..

出发点的不一样..

我会忍下来..

做个窝囊废就好..

STRESS

target target target..

i know i can do it!!

trust myself..

im not that bad..

I CAN DO IT!!

麻醉

麻醉的说:

我并没很想念你..

麻醉的说:

我其实过的很好..

麻醉的说:

我并不期待你找不找我？

麻醉的说:

我的生活本来就很充实..

麻醉的说:

我可以很快乐..

原来我被吃了麻醉药..

麻麻的没知觉了..

午夜时分

我还在思考..

思考着"被入侵"这三个字..

心里怪怪的..

我还在思念..

思念着那段回不去的回忆..

心里酸酸的..

我还在回想..

回想着今天放肆的我们..

心里暖暖的..

我的心里竟是如此的复杂..

有种言语无法形容的地步..

我中毒了

懒惰日

今天...........

很懒，很懒..

吃饱想睡了..

刚刚和 pet po 去了 pyramid.. XD

没事特地跑去那吃午餐..

好啦..吃完肯定逛街咯..

花钱了..

还好我没乱花..

而她呢？买了一大堆.. :P

这个礼拜她将破产..

哈哈哈..

我也破产了..

本人忠告*

钱是会花完的物体..

没事别带它出街... lol

I'm back

had bunch of foods...

FATS!!!!!!!

have u ever heard ppl back from penang to kl spending more den 8hrs?

yes we do.......

after our breakfast at penang..

we went pisa again to settle down some stuff..

den we visited our partner..

leaving penang at 1pm+

den... we stop kuala kangsar to have famous pak ngah laksa..

1 word to describe.. YUMMY!! :)

alright.. next stop..

ipoh.. boss brought me to look for famous kaya kok..

woah.. lots of ppl.. Q-up to buy u know..

i brought some home for mummy.. :)

den shenn wan buy ayam garam..

as told famous at ipoh..

manatao d famous one close on monday..

wat the "lovely mon" huh?? ><

right.. den boss stop som other shop to let shenn buy..

o.. he is 18th april boy..

is his day.. so got special offer.. :)

den we are suppose to go gunung rapat to hunt for some special food..

but too bad.. it was monday again.. the shop is close..

right.. den shenn wanted to go temple for praying..

boss brought us go too.. :)

round & round..

finally.. we found it.. Kek Lok Tong..

nice place.. like heaven.. :)

i love the natural air-con thr..

after that boss suggested to have dim sum s our dinner..

let's go........

ougch!!!! the shop close down.. sudah zhap lap.. it was very very BAD!!

my beloved dim sum.. bye bye..

end up.. suggested to have famous ipoh ngah choi chicken rice..

i'm fine v it.. :)

shenn was so happy..

the birthday boy eaten all famous food that he wan in ipoh..

well, i enjoyed too.. haha.. :D

but 1 tin i realize..

my stomach couldn't absorb much food..

seriously feeling full even i eat a little bit..

den got no rasa of feeling any hungry at all.. @_@

sudah rosak..maybe is a good tin..

while we reached subang..

it was like 900pm..

den i accompany boss go for tea after we drop shenn home while waiting my sis arrived to fetch me..

den my sis wanted to go makan..

ok.. makan again.. but i oni enjoy the root beer..

we was at drive through A&W.. :)

reached home was almost 11pm d..

so sleepy..

done my stuff..

tml continue with others.. :)

got to slep now..

good9 world..

18/4/2011

看见你的部落格了..

谢谢你那么爱我..

你说得对..

我会吃醋..

不对不对..

不是吃醋..

是羡慕..

不过，我已不再要埋怨些什么了..

只要你开心就好..

毕竟你的幸福必须你去争取..

毕竟你的快乐不是我能给.. :)

加油向前冲吧..

我还是会支持你..

别忘了，你回过头..

我会在你需要的地方支持你..

fei pet..

记得跟她说..

只要她再欺负你..

只要她再欺骗你..

只要她再辜负你..

我铲都铲到去JB找她..

Roadshow Ended..

AH!!!!!!!!!!

finally.. my Penang roadshow ended..

i just can say..

the stress is over.. :)

v hit our target..

v did wat we want..

happy yet tired..

tonite will tk a good rest..

must slep til gao gao.. (i wish i can)

tml will back to my sweet home..

the place i love.. :)

right.. tonite dinner was had at cafe..

not too bad..

quite nice..

im enjoy it.. :)

i will properly come back again next mth..

1 more tin is..

coming end of the mth..

i have to fight for kl fair..

god.. allow me to have extra time..

im laking time to do my task..

i need extra and more time..

well, i will still do my best..

time still go on.. :)

The Sweetest Day

You make my day.. XD

oh my god..

i so worry i couldn't sleep tonight..

you make me extremely miss you..

so wish i could fly to you and hug you tight..

♥♥♥

woah.....

not too bad..

i still sending mail to semua orang..

back from the show..

today was a bit bad on our target..

we couldn't hit it..

i shall work more harder tml..

i have to..

my target for tml must be double up and at least 2 off chair should be SOLD OUT!!

i make my promise i will do it!!

alright..

makan time..

breakfast i had somtin weird but quite nice.. :)

it call wat "da lok mee"..

never heard before.. :P

lunch was simple due to work..

but i satisfied with it.. :)

dinner + supper..

gurney drive lo..

my god.. i damn very full..

i actually have no appetite to eat except my fried chicken skin..

wakakakaka.. XD puas hatinya.. :P

cha keow teow lo..

sure got d..

den lots of ou jian.. sudah gila..

den lots of si ham.. ><

i damn full gila..

have not really enjoy much the food..

so.. this is for my second day dekat penang..

and u.. out of expectation..

dis is wat i can say.. thank u.. :)

stay tune ppl.. :)

i will be rite back..

Good Morning

I had kuey zap last9..

It was so amazing.. XD

I still love the taste..

after kuey zap, we hunt for ou jian..

den we had it and yao yu ong chou too..

my god.. I was so full..

but Boss and Shenn stl can fit..

den after makan, we ta bao ah pong and tang yuan som more.. ><

finally, Boss surrender.. He fulled too..

den i ask Shenn, hows u?

u know wat? he replied me, "ok lo"..

wah...... my eyes almost drop out..

which mean he haven feel full.. @@

he actually very thin..

but u really cant imaging..

he can fit in lots lots food.. ><

tonite, we will hunt others food den.. :)

roadshow started today..

need to fight to get more commission..

commission drive me crazy.. :)

rm10 - rm100 per different item..

slarp~~ i wan money!! XD

moon a bit down in the morning because you break your promise..

i understand i shouldn't expect..

but you told me last afternoon, you still remember..

but why you forget it once night arrived??

is fine i tell myself..

i still alive.. life still go on..

be good be nice..

cheers!!! :)

Here I come~

~Penang~

The place I love.. except jammed!! ><

I coming again.. :)

this time is for roadshow..

is for work..

but.. work thought i will enjoy makan.. XD

arrived!! hunt for cha keow teow sudah..

my lunch.. :)

quite cheap..

3 plates, 2 big, 1 small for only rm10.50..

so damn full man.. :)

my dinner..

i requested Boss go for keuy zap..

i miss it.. :)

he agreed!! Yahoo!!!!!!!

la~la~la~la~la~la~

exciting and awaiting to hunt for my dinner later.. :)

stay tune..

will be right back.. XD

恼羞成怒

最近的我脾气暴躁得不行..

动不动就发很大很大的脾气..

谁最可怜遭殃？

我家的 fei pet..

和我的“称职女朋友”..

我可以为了很小很小的事情发很大很大的脾气..

乱骂一通..

就像支停不了的剑..

拼命的刺..

死命的刺..

我想了很久..

到底这是为什么？

更年期到了？

应该还没吧？

提醒自己..

控制自己..

别犯了无可药救的地步..

心平气和..

加油..

The Law of Attraction

The Law of Attraction is a metaphysical New Thought belief that "Like attracts Like",

that positive and negative thinking bring about positive and negative physical results.

吸引定律是一种抽象的新思想的信念就像"喜欢像吸引"，

这种积极和消极的思想带来积极和消极的物理结果.

Do you THINK before you take any ACTION?

11/04/2011

Getting busy & busy..

my cough getting serious & serious..

thanks for mummy being so caring..

thanks for grandma being so gan jiong..

thanks for ah yi buy me chinese cough medicine..

thanks for frendo purposely go find me better cough medicine..

thanks for pet po d guan xin.. :P

thanks for "称职的女朋友" d advice..

& thank you for your text..

thanks for all ppl d around me for being so concern..

really thank you so much..

i wish, i hope, i pray my cough will getting better before i leave to Penang..

Sick..

Cough until lung going to drop out..

i wish i can escape not to "visit" doctor..

but can't.. stl have let doctor earn money..

well, i went to visit my common doctor..

he said: you shall rest more.. (again the same)

he said: you shall drink more water.. (same oso)

he said: you shouldn't tk fried food.. (siapa tak tau?)

sign.. i can be doctor too..

den went to visit chinese medicine doctor..

gao tim my waist..

o my god..

pain til i wan kill ppl..

den now balut lik ba zhang..

not allow to tk shower 3days..

god.. pls let me die.. i don wan.. ><

ppl!! sick is damn costly & ma fan..

so, pls tk good care of urself guys.. :)

give myself a big clap.....

coughing..

vomiting..

sneezing..

headache-ing..

apa apa pun ada..

im leaving to penang soon..

pls........

recover fast..

ou mi tou fo..

称职“女朋友”

you make my day~ :)

im seriously telling u..

you make me smile in the early morning.. XD

Time: 08:18am

your call make me feel sweet..

a little concern make me feel happy..

you make me wake up in a laughter mood..

sick is still around me..

so wish i can sick ever without recover..

just need you to concern about me.. :)

体弱多病

exhibition 后的今天我病倒了...

从原本的喉咙痛到发烧..

我累垮了..

今天因为生病很早就回家了..

但，我却回了店帮忙..

结果跟daddy吵架..

心顿时淡了..

我为这个家付出的不够吗？

相信家里的每一人都全心全意的付出..

唯有那个一家之主..

他的病让他常常对着我们发脾气..

蛮不讲理..

乱骂人..

今天他说了一句话让我彻底失望..

我掉眼泪了..

因为我觉得很伤害我..

“从今天起，我不会再叫你做任何事”

为的就是他要我拿他的车去修理..

拜托..这不是第一次了..

上两个星期我送去修理，回来他就complaint 说还是有问题..

所以，我只是说了，为什么你不自己去呢？

你明明就比较了解..

要我去，那是要我去几次？

加上我生病了..

老早回到店我就说了我生病..

我也是人..

做到半死，休假也得帮忙..

就连病了，也是一样..

我说我辛苦，他shoot我一句我比你更辛苦..

哈.....赢了..

你有病就赢了..

我不够孝顺吗？

家里个个都够孝顺了..

能做的我们都做了..

真想大声的骂你..

我们大大小小为了你都过得很辛苦你懂吗？

你给了我们什么？

妈咪是最可怜的那个你又懂吗？

整天就只会拿你的病来压我们？

一句不方便，妈咪再累都要为你奔波..

你就只会大小声..

指挥，骂人..

你还给了我们什么？

终于..

结束了..

好累，好累..

整整5天的 exhibition 终于结束，完成..

累垮了..喉咙痛死了..

每天每天都用喊的..

两个 hall 跑来跑去..

我只能用两句诗来形容..

“别人笑我太疯癫..”

“我笑他人看不清..”

我的妈呀..

人人都说我很可怜..

哈.........memang pun.. ><

袜子都破了..

还好我有位称职的“女朋友”.. 哈哈..

今天有她帮我去买了袜子..

先说谢谢了.. :)

说起这位称职的“女朋友”还真不得了..

她光临了我的部落格..

还记得前几篇我写过的称职“男朋友”故事吗？

她说她看了后不停的笑..

因为我的“文邹周”..

平时的我绝不会说出酱的话..

我给她的回应是........在这就是我的感性时刻..

哪有那么容易样样东西，

句句词语可以挂在嘴边？

我愿意写在这就证明了我重视，我在乎..

笨蛋..

其实我还蛮想知道我在那篇文章上到底提及她的一切是对是错？

我，到底多了解她？

有时.....我很有信心的认为我是了解她的..

但.....有时..我又觉得我不够了解她..

嘿.........中毒太深？？

没力用脑了..

不要再想了..

睡觉去吧..

晚安各位..

Last day of March

Is killing me..

Is tiring me..

I just need you to be my energy..

Exhibition around..

I will be busying for 4days..

yet, i just have a small request..

I need you to be my side..

no big hug, i'm fine..

no kisses, i'm fine..

i just need your concern..

i.... realize..

i will not hoping or waiting..

i appreciate what i have..

when u r calling..

i get my earn..

when u r not looking for me..

life still remain unchanged.. :)

i understand what shall i have..

i pay my day..

i get my way..

this is what i choose..

我和她

迈进新的发展..

还是???

旧的发展..

没关系..

不管什么发展..

不管时间长短..

我只想珍惜..

只要有她就好..

谢谢你..

让我甜甜的笑..

谢谢你..

让我拥有你..

我不再在乎名分的轻重..

我只在乎那是不是你.. :)

原本

约了你的午餐泡汤了..

但，惊喜的.......

你为了我拿了半天假期..

谢谢你..

我有感动到.. :)

人生无常

珍惜我们身边的一切..

感恩我们所拥有的..

Miracle.....

^_^

I not sure am i doing it correctly?

i actually don't ask for any return..

don't tell me 'u will not telling me anytin anymore'..

i wish i could do everytin for u..

a pant can prof..

i really have heart & remember everytin u said..

i wish u really appreciate..

yes, u did.. :)

thank u..

原来把一切收进心里，是如此承重..

It's too heavy keeping everything in your heart..

她

或许真的希望幸福..

我不明白？

不理解？

那是为什么？

我明明看见了另一个专页..

明明marital status写的是married..

明明存在..

但，她却对我绝口不提..

她明明说了，她不想再酱下去..

她明明说了，她会和她断清一切..

但，反而变本加厉了..

她，真的变了..

变得我不认识了..

她，心里到底在想什么？

我看不清了..

以前的我只要发现，一定当面质疑..

如今的我，从她专页落地了几天..

我没问过，没提过..

为的是希望她亲口对我说..

但她没有..

今天，我再次进入专页确认..

没有错..错不了..

是她..但，她依然还没对我说..

为什么？？

Understanding

Supporting is important..

Backup-ing is important..

But.......... What is the different to the person who doing odd jobs??

Ask myself, do I ever calculative??

do I ever lazy??

do I ever blame??

Previously I am not..

Until today.............

I so wish not because of the stupid responsibility burden on myself..

1 year & 1 week......

My performance is damn so discrepancy??

I still no belonging..

I still like nobody..

I still doing the stupid odd jobs..

I do not know where shall I belong..

Where no enough ppl..

I shall place at anywhr..

I start to be calculative??

Yes...... you make through..

I start to be lazy??

Yes..... you make me through..

I start to be blaming??

Yes..... you make me through..

I am tire for this situation anymore..

Promise..............

You never make the promise be real..

I am waiting..

I'm still waiting..

Still no different..

Still no changes..

I Hope.. I Wish..

I will be getting better & better..

I'm not request i can be the top..

But at least I will not suffering..

Day & Time can prof it.. :)

不明白的事

我....今天终于体会女生心机的轻重..

我家妹妹变得不像是她..

我好像不再了解她..

为了一个伤害她，欺骗她的人死心塌地..

为了那个人，无意识的默默等那人的电话..

不管多晚，多夜..

她总给我，给自己一个理由：睡不着..

其实并不是睡不着，而是下意识的要等那个人..

她会开始比较..

她会开始不甘心..

她也会开始有点小小的心机..

虽然她常常笑着说：没有啦..只是讲而已..

但我明白她的心或许有点点的是如此希望吧..

这就是所谓的呕心斗角吗？

不........只是她得过太多的伤害..

导致今天的她想为自己做点什么..

我其实不希望她如此但我相信自己并没资格去说她些什么？

我希望她幸福..

但她选择的是酱，我无法为她做些什么..

改变些什么..

希望她的选择不会让她造成更大的伤害..

结局是赢，是输都会有人受伤害..

虽然我想自私的要我妹妹赢..

我不希望她再受伤害..

但我又不想她变成如此心机重又自私的女人..

我害怕我不再认识她..

矛盾.........

who am I?

I'm not a perfect person..

i just need some belonging..

I'm not a strong person..

i just need some supporting..

I'm not a absolute lover..

i just too soft hearted..

ArghHh.............

my customer told me..

your company really make a good laugh to me & my wife..

i been in logistic line for 23years..

i never seem a company can only delivered a base but without to top to customer..

its really unacceptable..

listen to me.. don't trust lorry driver at all..

you need to monitor them yourself..

the second time he told me this..

is my false??

on the sport i really feel want to cry..

again.. i apologize & apologize..

thousand apologies also can not cover the mistake had done..

i ask myself back..

if today im the customer what is my respond?

unbelievable..

what is so call effectiveness work flow in a company?

i don know..

why must i always stand in front and kept saying "sorry"?

dropping my feeling of fighting..

funnier thing..

i work like nobody..

i feel i have no belonging at all..

how sad... :(