我.........

多想撑住..
多不想责备'你'...
多不想责怪'你'...
多不想埋怨'你'...
多不想在乎..
明明说过的..
你总是忘了..
不要夸下海口说我们是暧昧关系..
一点都不像..
一点都不是..
'你'就像我生命的过客..
偏偏我却对一个过客如此重视..
几时'你'才可以领悟到呢？
我要的只是简单的快乐..

心酸酸的

刚看完我那笨妹妹的那篇blog..
第一编文章竟然让我如此感伤..
我疼哦..
你不会是一个人..
我会在..
虽然我没能像个男人保护你..
但，我好好的呵护你..
别总是故作坚强..
别把伤心都往自己身上扛..
就算我的肩膀让你哭湿了..
我还有个大背让你靠..
要加油哦.. :)

spoil me off day..

my lovely customer..
called me since last night..
not only 1 but few..
im not the seller k?
i do not have commission..
yet, this is my responsibility i know..
i wan rest..
last9 til 10smt stl received customer called..
early in the morning..
8++.. harlo....
i stl in my dream lo..
yet, off oso haven work lo..
called me for what??
scold me ada la..
keep scold & scold..
fine.. i tk it..
warehouse ppl.. shoot me too..
fine i tk it..
delivery dept shoot me..
i tk it..
logistic shoot me..
i tk it..
technician part have prob..
is my prob too..
i tk it..
alright.. what else u wan me to tk it more??
im damn tire.. not sleeping prob anymore..
is stress..
i wan holiday..
long long holiday pls...... >.<

almost late for work..

>___________________<
i am pig..
almost late for work today.
wake up at 9am..
what the..
im sleepy..
im tired..
recently playing on9 game..
always mid9 1,2am oni fall asleep..
since have nothing to do & cant fall sleep den on9 game help me.. :P
is a kind of fighting game..
u have to tk care of it very often..
fei pet said thats not fit my image??
erm?? play on9 game oso have to look on image?
i drink milk.. she said not man at all.. is not suppose a TB to be.. @_@
i play on9 game.. whr is fighting game.. she said not fit my image..
than, what actually suite me?
wondering.......... =="

丑角......

我发现的一首歌..
我就像里面的角色..
丑角


*只要你开心就好 若只是你生命的配角
娱乐过你也骄傲
就算听你说他的好 心里对你再多爱慕
仍是站在远处 只给你祝福
你有权力寻找 你最适合谁的拥抱
既然爱过 还你自由 我不哭不闹
我只是 寂寞的解药
我也知道 曲终人该散了*

回应

只是让我心碎..
就不能让我拥有简单的快乐？

我是怎么了？

我看我有很大的问题了..
我承受不了压力？
我没办法释怀？
我快疯了？
我是怎么了？
我..........
超讨厌吸烟..
不喜欢烟薰薰的感觉..
昨晚，我疯了..
我抽烟了..
结果半夜肚子痛，头痛到现在..
我有问题了........ @_@

又是睡眠问题？

今天回HQ途中..
总是会用summit,subang那条塞到不行的通道..
真的不想但又懒弯一个大圈..
就乖乖的塞吧..
塞了半个小时吧..
我竟然不知不觉的睡找了..
不是打瞌睡..
而是真正的睡着了.. =="
好像忘了踩break还是怎样的..
撞上我前面那辆satria...
还好只是轻轻的撞上..
没什么大碍..
对方的车割花了点点..
我家小蓝也是..
心是痛的..但，没办法..
谁叫我要睡着.. @_@
对方是个牛高马大的印度人..
他下车是真的吓死我了..
我拼命的对他说: sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry..
讲了几百次我都不懂..
只知道当下傻掉了..
上回车，我竟然还有点睡意..
天啊......我可以爱睡到这种程度？
太累了吗？
不晓得.......
打电话给我家妹妹..
一个两个都没接电话..
有时觉得还真可怜..
埋怨吗？
是的......
寂寞吗？
是的......
还是喜欢 lonely.. im Mr.lonely.. >.<

睡眠不足？？

我该说夜晚是我最有精神的时候？
一想到可以赚钱，再累我都愿意..
三更半夜都无所谓..
难道我现在的工作就不赚钱吗？
不是的.......只是只有我一个人的店里有点闷..
总是打瞌睡..累..
今天还夸张到差点睡下去..
没用..不专业..
全职工作本来就得好好做..
没事总是睡，睡，睡..
反而外快就精神饱满..
就来累垮了啦..
我想放很多天的假..
我要去玩..
我要去旅行..
天啊................
头又痛了.. @_@

Pissed Off

后悔昨晚我没有沉住气..
我开口骂人了..
骂了我们家的AM..
他奶奶的不是男人..
当下真的抓狂!!!
抱歉，我懂在我的职位我不该骂你..
当我好好跟你讲时..
你把所有的责任推到我身上..
你说那是我的错..
我道歉了..
你还是认为你没有错..
错不在你..
大脑还来不及转..
我就口快的骂了你："what is your responsibility?"
哇.....吃到炸药了..
你竟然回我一句："previous company i always ask my staff to do it!"
"我交代她做了..难道交代了都不可以？全部还要我自己做？"
WTH...老兄..人手不够好不好？
你奶奶的要女生帮你搬东西，收拾..
你不会不好意思哦？
我说的不是我啦..
我总是自己做..
要帮忙我会叫人帮..
个个都累了..
个个都想早回家..
不是只有你这位大人AM咯..
好啦..骂完人..
我心里竟然觉得不舒服..
因为你的职位高过我..
我该向上司回报，再让他们找你谈..
我错了..
我会检讨..
我会沉住气..
抱歉MR.AM... 凸

finally.....

i can't stand..
no use..
start blaming & complaining..
what i had send??

~Feel of scolding you, feel of cry on my disappointing. But, i told myself scold no energy, cry no tears for this person ever. Let it be. Just be cooling to "you" will be fine. I kept telling myself. If "you" allowing me to pass to ur mum,"you" said "you" have no time to meet me. Even i feel disappointed but at least "you" show ur respond to me. I won as disappointed as now. Ask urself, how many times "you" broke ur promis to me? Ask urself how many hope "you" gave me & took it away again from me? "you" spoil my off day. "you" spoil my movie day. Because of "you" i willing to change all my plan follow ur time. But everytime "you" let me wait & wait & wait no ans. Ignoring me s "you" like. Shall i scold myself stupid? always & always with the end of wording 'sorry'.. tat is it. this is whr "you" told me i place a special place in ur heart. Tats whr a place im in the last & 'waiting' list. Finish blaming & good9.~

6 page of message..
feel stupid im doing this..
yet, i did it..
feel myself just like a fool.....
SHIT!!

Disappointed..

"you" suppose to come look for me..
"you" always arrange on "your" time..
always want me to follow "your" time..
i always never say no to "you" & always arrange my time to fit "your" time..
yet......... "you" always disappointing me..
always be..
what "you" know about me?
i hate no well planning..
i hate wait no answer..
i hate no responsibility..
what had "you" did to me?
always.. im not the person have a place in "your" heart..
always.. im the person in "your" last list..
always.. "you" ignoring me like nothing..
'sorry' is not the word i wish to hear..
'wait' is not the word i want to hear..
what had "you" gave me?
this is it..
because of "you" i change all my plan..
because of "you" i stay at home doing nothing..
wait for "you"..
how many promise "you" broke?
cry no tears..
scold no energy..
feed-up to hear 'sorry' from "you" anymore..

累......

累垮了..
进入昏昏欲睡的状况..
哈哈哈..
每天每天..
睡的时间大约只有4-5个小时..
连续1个星期了吧..
尽然可以让我觉得那么那么的累..
加上一星期做6天工..
每天都几乎10am-10pm..
更要晕了..
头疼........ @_@
我的同事头疼请假去了..
我头疼就静静的来做工..
店里没人了..
连我都不来那就不用开店吧..
明天我可以休息一天了..
只要原定计划没变，那我就可以休息一天..
休息日对我来说也不会是休息..
那也会是忙碌的一天..
我兼职柴可夫司机的日子..
分分钟起得比平时还早.. >.<
还要为星期五开始的roadshow烦恼..
不够人手..
就算要train过新人也没办法了..
店里的sales....... T_T
无言以对......
是我的问题..
我没有想出解决方案..
我没有努力approach.....
我有努力了..
但，筋疲力尽...
烦恼，懊恼，累.....
我的小小生意..
人说起头难..
难，真的很难..
还没看到钱但却花完了我一个多月的薪水..
做了两个多月..
还没正式看到钱但我累了..
好累好累..
是不够睡眠问题吗？
我也不懂了..
为了钱，为了生活..
累得像什么样？
谁会懂？谁会体谅？
外表只让人认为你好像赚很多..
赚的都在瞬间给了该给的费用..
我不要是家里最大的那个了..
我想过得~~~
平凡点..
简单点..
踏实点..
轻松点..
无忧点..
无虑点..
没包袱点..
开心点..
可以吗？

我很累了..

My life

Sleepy..
Tired..
Boring..
No day..
No night..
No weekday..
No weekend..
am I blaming??
I think yes i am..
Can I say staff no enough?
not really..
just everybody have their own right..
own principle & selfish??
yes........
human need to protect ourself..
yes yes yes yes yes..
but to a boss will they feel calculative if you over protecting??
maybe..
feel sick of this kind of situation.. ><

梦想

逐渐接近？
逐渐遥远？
我也不懂了..
还没真正赚到钱..
钱真的好难赚哦..
赚来了，转手就不见了..
怎样才可以把钱收好呢？><

开心日记..

although im off but im still busy..
im happy to have my job..
im happy & appreciated what i have now..
a small little wish..
not much..
not a lots..
please don bring it away from me..
im trying hard to do it perfectly..
will a person kena saman if doing 3 job in once??
im having small business now..
yet,im doing my job too..
& the other one is secret..
but i will not hurt any body..
i never stop of thinking how to earn $$..
u can say im money face..
yes, i am..
money place important part in my life..
my final conclusion..
in this world, no money no talk..
no matter how much i earn, i still feel no enough..
just no enough.. ><
god.. i din ask for more..
at least don make me feel so suffering when i need the so call money.. T_T
now.. im still in a fighting mode..
money no enough..

2 days.........
i shall be happy.. :)
"you" called before "you" sleep..
thank you..
i will keep it & appreciated..
im that easy..

今天来的AM.......

真想揍他..
26岁说得自己像神一样..
so??了不起??
我没羡慕你啦..
我的工作好好的..
你要名誉地位那是你家的事..
你不要来惹我..
我不是不要出人头地..
只是我还年轻..
在这里，我拥有很多发表的机会..
不需要像你酱拼命炫耀..
奉劝你一句吧..
爬得太高，太快..
跌死也会很快..