A reply that short..

actually digi was closing bill since 25 of july..
but i never tell "you"..
i stl wonder shall i tell "you" to request the money or i pay for "you"?
yet, i hang till today..
i decided to tell "you"..
its not my responsibility to pay for "you" anymore..
yet, "you" are not using it to keep in touch with me..
& we no longer in any relationship..
a text for "you" in the morning..
never expecting "you" will reply..
suprise that "you" reply me around 9am..
shall i happy?
short reply..
thank & will bank in to my account..
shall no expecting..
shall no disappointed..
now i know..
day is going thru fast..
tml will be my fei pet birthday lu..
but i have to work..
will buy her a cake & share v mummy when her birthday arrive too..
always share bcos mummy birthday is on 7 aug.. ^^
10 more days will be "your" birthday d..
im planning to buy "you" smt..
but........... i dont know should or shouldn't?
do i have miracle?
be patient & wait..

Copy from Emage.. I love this.. :)

想念一个人是很美妙的…
若对方也一样的想念自己是很幸福的…
想念你是不需要理由的…
但我只想给你知道我在这里想念着你…
对你的思念从没减少过，而是增加了…
想念你却说不出口…
也不能告诉你…
只好把对你的思念埋藏在心里…
不懂远方的你感觉的到吗？


我不只想念"你"...
而是非常想念"你"...
but i will just keep "silent"..
i won tell "you".. :)

My Car.. :(

got a big crash on my little blue grey.. :(
heart so pain..
yday while going bec to hq to send that stupid not functioning vacuum..
manatao tat stupid trolley unstable..
slip in fall..
so.......... crash on my little blue grey driver door..
WT!!!!!!!
i almost cry..
moving out everything..
look for parking..
look at d crash..
my heart was death..
hahahaha..
kua zhang..
stupid..
im trying to safe it..
but it cant..
nothing much i can do..
i don noe how?
jus leave it d..
so feel of cry..
dis morning show to mummy..
she jus speechless..
oni tin she told me..
today "special" ma.. =="
a bit zha dao..
means today got number to buy..
o my god..
mayb kena den i can bring for spay..
hahaha.. :P
got to cheer o..
don worry be happy.. :)

我想要说............

我想要说......
我累了..
眼睛很痛..
昨天靠自己幸运的开了一张单..
高兴.. ^^
希望接下来我还可以更顺利..
要加油哦!!!!! ^^

someday/few days/what is the day??

Standfer Lim
is tire..
is stressful..
is moody..
is down..
is blur..
is forgetful..
is shit..
BUT!! i still be positive.. :)
i am not a perfect person..
just wish to voice here..
nothing much..
can i say i miss "you"?
even "you" are not worth for me to say that..
but i wish to say it here..
i wish "you" can support me..
even i have all my friends to suppost me..
i wish "you" can share with me..
but "you" are no longer here anymore..
so, be silent mode.. :X

tml will be the day!!

24th July......
Cozzia new outlet short opening..
im nervous..
i feel like lots of stuff not finish yet..
but i cant count what is the matter not complete??
yet, i started to feel tire..
honestly..
i do not know why?
just feel like tire..
feel like rest..
but now, at this moment, i can not do it..
what shall i do?
thinking positive!!
i can do it!!
i always be..
try my best & do it in a right way..
no mistake again k?
keep getting shoot..
nevermind.. i can tk it!!
this is one thing good on my pesonality..
hahahahahaha.. ><
i will gambateh!! :)

a little bit update for past 2 days post..

Tuesday, after my lovely buddy came bec from thier holiday..
we went yum cha..
izit we too rare to hang out or what?
everytime non-stop talking..
keep talk & talk..
up till late at nite oni gan yuen balik.. :P
Teng brought me candle in sampan from kuantan..
now it is on top of my tv set.. :)
Ee brought me chocolate..
yum yum.. kit ket dah habis all in my stomach oso my family stomach.. :P
just cant stand for keeping it one more day, i had finish it..
hopefully next round we may hang out more offenly..
i started to work on weekend..
scare cant spare my time out.. @_@

Yesterday, went steamboat buffet with both of my sis, xiao di, xiao lu..
all these name was from me.. hehe.. :)
the feeling was bec in my memory..
pass 2years ago..
6 of us always hang out together with my little kancil..
oppss.. dont mk police report that i overload.. :P
but now, we left 5ppl..
& lots of thing change..
no longer kancil but using xiao di car, toyota..
no longer all stl in couple relationship..
left xiao di & my sis..
huh.. less 1 person..
that's "you"..
but we really enjoy the food very much..
damn full..
but it oso caused me diarrhea.. ><
i hate dis kind of feeling..
my stomach kinda weak i know..
i shall not mixed up all the food to eat..
but yet, steamboat shall be like that right? :P

A bit nervous now..

Outlet opening soon on coming Saturday..
been tire for few days..
lots of stuff rush in last minute..
until now i haven't buy any stationary yet..
oh my.. tml shall go carrefour whr nearby..
just cant imagine after outlet open..
what will come next?
i just wish everything will be fine..
everything will soon soon li li..
i gonna jia you..
need to handle lots of stuff.. ><
can i complaint im tire?
can i request to have rest?
i know i shouldn't bcos even my boss oso never rest..
can i request to have my allowance?
always been travelling but do not get any extra pay..
who willing to do that?
i know everyone of your been so busy..
but can i request?

have to cheer o Standfer!!

Is not the end of the world......

Sometime lots of ppl will because of some little things (maybe it is not a little thing for them).. they make it & take it seriously..
They wish they can have a perfect moment & perfect life..
But lots of things are not under our control..
we cant just make it real..
what shall we do??
hold it tight or let it go?
a sudden think of mind..
i feel i no longer lost..
i know what i need actually..
i know what i want too..
when "you" leave me..
i notice i cant live without "you"..
what a shame..
i cant even imagine how i coming out thru dis situation..
maybe work help me..
maybe my friend help me..
i can say maybe "you" help me too..
shall i say that?
but one thing i can sure..
i just feel tire to wait anymore..
it is not meaningful at all..
"you" playing ppl like a fool..
include me as well..
i do not know at "your" situation now..
how serious "you" take in a relationship..
alright.. i ignore i still care..
"you" are just change to a person who i dont know..
we are just like a stranger..
but doesn't matter anymore right?
"you" know what??
i just cant understand why "you" throw me out of "your" life?
nothing much..
i just cant expect anything from "you" anymore..

i CAN live without "you" ^^

疯狂的昨天.. ^^

其实很久没运动了..
懒了..累了..没力了..
种种的借口..
就是不想动.. :P
niang niang (san) 的一个点子..
去bukit cahaya骑脚踏车..
原以为她会想去shopping..
我也想很久没去了..
结果我吓倒了..
没关系..她喜欢就好.. ^^
8点多..
去了她bf那里吃肉骨茶..
hmm.....还不赖..
她介绍我吃炸鲨鱼..
我喜欢..好吃..
不过，那分量有点太大了..
饱到一个无法形容的地步..
哈哈哈哈哈..
好啦..
大约十点左右吧..
抵达目的地..
我的妈呀..
有够多人的..
当然我们也不能在第一时间租到脚踏车咯..
怎么办?
懒人想法..坐巴士去也.. =="
绕了一个圈..
去了四季屋..
明明就是夏天，可是不知为什么里面很冷..
我该说..不够专业吧..
但.........我们都爱..
嘻嘻.. :)
因为我们有够"粘"&"热"的.. :P
下个目的地..
小型动物园..
还真的小型到..没什么动物看.. @_@
救命!!!鸽子四处满天飞..
最吓人的一幕..
我和niang niang都吓傻了.. =="
等巴士来接我们下山啦..
回到原点租脚踏车去咯..
终于有脚踏车了..
wolala..
我们要出发走回一样的山路了..
刚刚开始的5分钟.. bersemangat betul~~~
dik tak dik tak........
过了15分钟..
抵达我们去过的动物园..
累了..
休息时间到.. :P
我们在那里休息了5-8分钟吧..
好啦..继续咯..
dik tak dik tak..........
过了10分钟..
来到兔子园.. (没兔子的)
还是继续吧..
dik tak dik tak.......
再过了20分钟吧..
我只能说: 救命啊!!!!!
抵达四季屋了..
但我们累得说不出话了..
休息，休息..
其实还有很长远的路要走，但我们真的不行了..
所以........ patah balik.. :P
1230pm,回家咯..
好像这个时候最开心..
哈哈哈哈哈..
带niang niang去了我爸妈的店..
喝喝茶..
next plan... neway sing k.. :P
好咯..反正闲着也是闲着..
顺带一提..我们两都没冲凉..
就酱去了.. (有够臭的) :P
2点开始至6点不过如果没人那我们可以唱到7点..
疯了..
我们两真的唱到上气不接下气..
平时太多人唱了..
很久很久才会轮到你..
昨天，你送给我，我都不想了..
已经唱到"红豆"出来，"脱衣"出来..
什么都出了..
还真想不到要唱什么了.. @_@
就在结账时..最后一首歌..
你想也想不到的歌.."无言的结局"..
笑死我们了..
还真的给他炸到啐啐.. :P
不过专业的我们当然没放弃..
专业的把它唱完.. (还加入舞蹈)
哈哈哈哈哈哈..
结果在我们步出房门时，竟然听到隔壁也点了这首歌..
hmm.....我们就知道是我们唱得太好，感染你们了..
哇哈哈哈哈哈哈哈..
行程结束咯..
我们都各自回家了.. ^^
我只能说:真是有够疯狂的一天..

woohoo!!!!!

jus came bec from Sunway Giza..
tried Tao..
erm.. dont have a very good or bad comment on it..
just wat i had lik previous japanese buffet style..
but i love smt dey..
Gold Cup Tuna..
yum yum.. oso d dessert..
hahahaha..
celebrate Khoon & Ka Zua birthday..
waoh.. so pok now..
but muo muo allow me pay her by next mth..
thank god.. ^^
all these ladies ar..
keep eat & eat..
take & take..
finally.. cant finish..
den ah gan suddenly think of Lee Koon..
y? she can eat a lots..
hahahaha.. =="
we have som photo shooting..
not with me..
so will upload by ah peck on fb i think..
jus went to fetch my sis..
she & her fren drunk lik dono wat?
all blur blur in my car..
som more police block jus now..
i turn in others way to fetch dem home..
ppl married lik they married.. =="
tml morning..
will go cycling at bukit cahaya..
our national park with niang niang (san)..
hahahaha..
i suppose to rest now but i don have any mood yet.. :P
actually i oni plan to have breakfast with her d..
a sudden mood since both of us oso bored & free on weekend.. :P
so, our plan is............
dont want shopping..
do smt special..
den dis is our idea..
im not sure will we die dey o not?
but jus go ahead.. :P
will enjoy gao gao tml..
hehehe..
long time never hang out with her d.. :)

Now only I know..

to open a newly operation company is not easy at all..
to open a newly outlet is not easy at all too..
lots of stuff need to prepare..
a lots..
i only in-charge a small little part..
also the easy part.. :P
out of that..
nothing i have to do..
but they all.. i mean my boss..
they have to do lots lots neh..
i jus cant imagine within a shorter time..
how can we manage to do?
but i believe..
nothing is impossible..
i just need to do my part..
dont keh po anything else.. :P
as Charmaine told me..
i have to ready myself to accept lots of new stuff..
new works.. new colleagues..
once i never ready myself..
once i cant play the character of leader..
so, im stand by now to accept everything..
im ready.. ^^
im happy after i decide what i really want..
i know my future within a year or maybe 2 year i may going thru hard..
but i will be more stronger..
after this everything im sure will be fine..
i know i will.. :)

Cheers Standfer..
everyday will be a great day..
"接受" "最好的结局"..

still thinking..

a bit worry i make my choice wrong..
was thinking to buy gold ring for myself..
but scare it will out of my budget..
but that only thing can wear it & value will goes up..
only gold..
i dont wish to buy silver anymore..
no value at all..
i love white gold..
but it is no value in future too..
huh.. what shall i buy?
still thinking..
a bit bored in office today..
nobody in yet..
even i have lots of stuff to do..
but im alone..
sound cold.. :P
feel sleepy..
was thinking tonight wana look for who to yum cha..
still thinking.. @_@

我见到你了..

昨晚你出现了..
我见到你了..
坦白说..
我有点点的期待..
但也仅仅是少许的期待..
旁晚开始就发烧了..
但我没告诉你..
静静的等你来..
约好的八点，你迟到了..
九点多你才出现..
坦白说，我有点生气..
你始终没把我放在心上..
原本你说你只是拿了东西给我，你就会离开..
但你下车了..
手里拿了一袋姜汤汤圆..
你说希望我喝了会好一点..
我感动了..
两个礼拜没见了..
看着你，你变得更漂亮了..
是谁让你变得更漂亮了?
肯定不是我..
在你回之前，你摸了摸我的脸..
告诉我要好好照顾我自己..
然后给了我一个我们的暗语笑容..
又是一个感动..
当下眼泪真的快掉了..
但我没有..
直到你离开，我也没有..
不是哭不出来了..
而是我明白了..
再哭你也不会回来了..
看着你幸福的笑着，我明白了..
你过得很好..
酱就够了.. ^^

女生可以喜欢女生吗?

在Leven的部落格看到的..
虽说只要相爱就好了..
但,很多事情的背后并不像想象的简单..
爱情，不是两个人的故事..
不是只要有主角就好了..
它还需要包含了很多配角，临时演员，幕后工作人员才可以完成的..
当故事进行到一半，任何喊"咔"的人不想再演下去时..
这故事就必须结束了..
尤其是家人..父母..
他们虽不是主角但他们却是重要的配角..
没了配角，主角的故事再精彩..
始终演的还是两人的对角戏..
女生与女生之间是否永远都没有完美的故事？
我想在我认知的世界里还没让我看到..
那在未来呢？
不懂..
但我却期待未来会有不一样故事结局..

chapter 100..

just realize my small little page have full of 99 story..
yet, this is my 100.. :)
time been so fast..
i start to blog since march..
it was the day after "you" broke up with me..
i slowly read back..
i realize the actual date we really lost contact was 2weeks pass..
woah.. it was amazing..
is a new life to begin..
shall celebrate my 101 posted story or what?
i admitted i still love "you"..
i admitted i still will think about "you"..
i wondering if one day i have put "you" down..
what will i do to my little page?
delete it & change a new page?
hmm.. i guess i wont..
inside there are not oni your story..
i have mine too..
oso my friends..
is my memory space..
time now is 1230am..
i still hanging around..
last9 4am..
how bout tonite?
no, i shall go on my bed..
tml i still have to wake up early..
no play play..
my job is more important..
sombody ask me today..
'why you always take your job so seriously?'
i ans it: 'im not taking serious on my job oni.. i very serious to everything & very responsible..'
den the person show me =="
u noe why?
tat fellow said nobody will admitted & puji sendiri wan wo..
alright..
im not admitted or puji..
i jus wan to tel the person..
no one is perfect..
is jus i love to do in a better way..
i respect & care everything beside me..
i try my best to make it perfect..
i don wish everything goes wrong because of me..
this is my responsibility..
hmm.. izit im stubburn again?
maybe.. :P

病了..

昏昏沉沉..
想睡，还是想睡..
累了..
但，昨晚我竟然要4点才睡觉..
睡不着..
脑袋一片空白..
讨厌的伤风..
没事来找我不知道做么? @_@
昨晚，我带少少的期待可以见你..
虽然是说还回彼此之间的一切给对方..
虽然我们可能不再见面了..
最后，我们没见面了..
因为你累了..
我还是一样的尊重你..
让你睡觉去了..

:)

i did very well up til the night..
im :) no matter how..
i had tried my best today..
i had not fulfill the goal i set but i did it better..
i proud to myself i made all of them fight together with me..
thinking +ve really will better.. :)
im loving it!!
my confident is back!!
:) :) :)
i give my own rank to 3 star for today..
late at night now..
im feeling tired but i do not have mood to slep..
i miss "you"..
out of work..
i always spend som of my time think bout "you"..
this is oni som whr i can do..
wake up in the early morning..
i will spend 20min to think bout "you" first..
up til i brush my teeth den i will think bout my work..
lunch hr.. i spend 20min again to think bout "you" while i bite my bread..
driving time.. i spend my journey to think bout "you" again..
night, before fall sleep.. i spend some of my time think bout "you" again but my time is not oni "you" anymore..
i spend som to think bout my work..
nowaday.. i using a diff way to miss "you"..
a silent mode to miss "you"..
do "you" know??
my room is stl full of our picture..
im unwilling to take it down bcos "you" told me before dont ever keep it..
yet, i noe it is nothing meaningful anymore but i jus wish to place it there without changing anything..
how stubburn i am?
i jus want to be like that..

Confident!!

ya... where is my confident??
searching on it..
going to give up..
true from the person i respecting..
she noe me well..
even he oso noe me well..
that oni a way how to do it & my heart!!
i do have leadership all this while..
yes i noe!!
i have it..
this round i dono why all my confident lost?
i promise all of u..
i will find it bec!!
i will bec to normal on tml..
i will do it better!!
i will not give up anymore!!
nothing is impossible!!
i wont let ppl look me down!!
what is my vision??
CLOSE DEAL!!
I WILL MAKE IT REAL!!

Cheer STANDFER!! ^^

Aggresive..

Im trying all my best..
as harder as i can..
really..
i noe i cant blame for anytin..
as a leader..
so.............
what i can do??
TRY MUCH MORE HARDER!!
yet, i have to :)

huh............

tk a deep deep deep breathe!!
tml roadshow begin..
yet, i have to gambateh!!
im tired honestly..
but i have to do it!!
cheer standfer!!
nothing much..
nothing is impossible..
u got to do it!!
wu la la~~
cheer cheer cheer.. :)

its Monday..

means...............
roadshow wil begin soon..
hmm.. im actually feeling nervous neh..
i need to close sales..
as many as i can..
hahaha..
i need that..
this round less few of my buddy.. T_T
a little bit kek sam..
cant fight together with them d..
huh.. no choice..
but, i have to gambateh neh!!
must try my best..
JIA YOU JIA YOU!!

pls :) for everything

ya.. learning how to :) recently..
from vv..
no matter what is happening..
pls :)..
nothing much..
im not sure how true from my heart..
but i need to :) & not to worry my fren..
i feel my heart lost somewhr..
and i dono whr it go..
but i trying hard tofind it bec..
bcos i need it..
without my heart i cant even stop my tears..
last9 while im alone..
i din :) anymore..
i jus cant stop to dropping my tears..
feel lik shower tub..
keep dropping & dropping.. none stop..
yet, after i woke up..
it was a new day..
again, i have to :)..
ok.. im trying in front of everybody..
den, while im on my way to work..
my tears come bec to me..
start all over again..
S***..
since when i hate my tears?
i dono..
arrive my destination, i stop my tears & :) again..
hahaha.. how stupid i am?
jus dono.. acting wil do i think..
sorry people there..

发现

我最近的贴都还蛮短的..
是我懒了?
没力了?
还是..........
一个朋友对我说..
这么多年，我唯一没变的..
就是我那罗嗦..
我总把一件事情重复又重复的说..
她告诉我..
如果一个人选择了离开你..
那，那个人也不会再想听你说些什么了..
为什么你就不能静静的让她离开呢?
是吗?是酱的吗?
但，我每次都静静的不出声了..
不对吗?
后来我明白了..
她所谓的静静让她离开..
是别再牵扯在她的生活里..
别再给于她任何关心..
别再对她期待..
别再认为自己还有机会..
能的话..让她自生自灭..
是她错过了你对她的好..
失去后的后悔..
会出现在我的生活吗?
相信不会..
因为她一样选择了对我不闻不问..
留下了所有的回忆让我拥有..
我是幸福的.. ^___^

平平的心情..

今天发现我有点不想动..
想静静的不出声..
想懒懒的不出声..
想慢慢的讲出声..
想呆呆的过一天..
想淡淡的想念和你的过去..
不再有激动的情绪..
不再有埋怨的思绪..
留下的只有平平的心情..

我就酱过了..

人生的转折..
事情的转变..
一切一切的改变..
我会坚强..
我会学会接受..
曾经的期待..
曾经的等待..
曾经的抱负..
很可能该画下句号了..